Dean pov
I woke up the next morning in extreme pain I literally couldn't move my neck with out it sending a shotin pain down my body seth was still asleep beside me I managed to get out of bed witch out waking him up and talking some strong pain killers after a while they kicked in and although I was still in alot of pain it didn't hurt as bad
I went back to the bedroom to try sleep abit more now the pain aint as bad as I got in to bed I woke seth up he opened his eyes and looked at me sorry I mumbled you ok he asked yeah now I mumbled what do you mean now he asked I couldn't even move my neck before I took some strong pain killers tho
But it still hurts alot I said moving slightly and putting my head down on his chest carefully as it hurt me I let out a little moan of pain you ok he asked yeah I said closing my eyes and trying to fall back asleep after a little while I managed to drift back of to sleep
Dream
Dean seth shouted from the other room yeah I shout back come he he shouted ok 2 minutes I shout
I got out of bed and went in to the living room
What's up I asked dean look I love you so much but im sorry I can't be with you anymore he said I was taken back at seth's words w-what I asked I can't be with you im leaving dean he said seth dont please I asked im sorry I have too he said walking out the door I lost everything the minute he walked out that door and left me I had nothing left for me roman won't talk to me and I don't no what I've done and now seth just left me I have no one my life is so fucking shit I hate it punched the wall a faw time and tear a starting going down my cheeks and I never cry I went to the kitchen getting a knife out and some paper and a pen
Note---to who ever cares enough to find me im sorry for what you would see
Roman I have no idea what I done that made you stop talking to me but whatever it was im sorry you were my brother and I needed you the most when you weren't there
And seth I have no idea why all off a sudden you left me we were fine we were finally happy and then you just leave out off the blue and left me I don't what you to feel bad I was never good enough for you anyways I am a nobody
---Jonathan x
I put the note on the table and then put the knife to my wrist and cut it all the way up my arm and did the same too the other one watching as everything started to spin and darken around me I closed my eyes as I struggled to breath I heard the door open and then someone shout my name I don't no who tho
Dean! Dean open you eyes what the hell have you done to yourself I heard them say as something was being wrapped round both my arms and I was being picked up
im sorry I mumbled still struggling to breath hey listen your gonna be fine he said who are you tried to say opening my eyes a little but everything was blurred and I could see them it's me roman just stay with me man I can't loss you im sorry for the way I've been acting towards you lately where's seth he said h-he l-l-left I said what! Roman said putting me in the car and driving off
Dean you stay with me ok please don't go I heard him say it sounds like his crying my breathing slowing down move and move as time went on I knew I was gonna die
R - roman...... i-im s-s-sorry I said no dont you do this to me please don't say good bye please I heard him say then I heard him on the phone
Seth it's me you son of a bitch why did you leave dean he said what do you mean he said no im on the way to the hospital with dean cause when I walked in I found him he cut himself he said dean seth wants to talk to you he out the phone to my ear
Dean!Dean im sorry please don't leave im sorry ok im so so sorry please don't go he said I took in a breath i-i l-love Y-you s-seth I said quietly no dean!don't you say good bye dean please he said before my eyes closed
Dean!! Dean no no no dont you do this to me dean! Roman said then everything just stopped
End of dream
Dean? Hey dean?!........dean you ok....shit your burning up seth said I opened my eyes slowly my head was on my pillow and seth was walking back in the room with a bottle of water and a towel he wet the towel putting it on my head
Dean? You ok ? He asked d-dont l-leave I said shaky what? Dean im not going anywhere he said I-im sorry I mumbled dean what are you talking about you have nothing to be sorry for and im not gonna leave he said my neck was killing I had a really bad headache
Dean your temperature has gone really really High come on he said picking me up witch made me moan in pain he pulled me to the shower turning it on and pulling me under him still in my clothes as was he he sat me down and sat next to me I leaned in to him
It's gonna be ok dean I promise he said I closed my eyes
