Seth pov
After dean feel asleep I closed my eyes keeping him close to me I still felt really bad about what I had said to him I didnt mean it and it's eating away at me how could I have said that to him I mean his forgiven me and im greatful but I can tell everytime he looks at me I can see the hurt in his eyes
And it kills me to know im the reason I opened my eyes again and looked over at him still wrapped up in my arms he looks so cute when his sleeping I leaned down and kissed his cheek "I love you dean and im so sorry for what I said I feel so bad about it and I can see that it hurt you and it's killing me to know that I hurt you" I wispered "it's ok I forgive you" he wispered back I move my head abit to look at him his eyes were still closed
"I just feel so bad about it" I said he opened his eyes looking straight in to mine "don't feel bad about it I know now you didn't mean it it was just the heat of the moment" he said to me "I know but still" I said "seth stop ok it's fine" he said "it's not I can see it hurt you dean I see it in your eyes that you still hurt" I said
"Look seth yes it hurt when you said that it hurt alot and it still does yes but what's done is done" he said "you would never say something like that to me" I said "how do you know I've said some bad things in the past to people I once cared about" he said "really" I asked "yes we end up in fights we say things we don't mean it happens yes it still hurts when people do it but once it's said you can't go back and I've lost people in the past for things I've said but didn't mean or things I've done" he said clearly upset about bringing up his past he never talks about his past like ever both me and roman are very close to dean and he never brings it up
"I'm sorry" I said "don't worry about it" he said "I mean about your past I would never leave you if you said something bad because I love you and I know you love me and wouldn't mean it" I said "that's not the point I was trying to make but thanks I guess" he mumbled I could see tears now in his eyes and it broke my heart "I know what point you were trying to make" I said "ok" he mumbled his voice cracked a little "you ok" I asked as he turned his back to me "im fine" he mumbled back once again his voice cracking I turned him on to his back he had tears coming down his cheeks he was crying?
"Hey its ok" I said bringing him in to hug it just made more tears fall I had never seen him like this I hugged him tighter rubbing his back he just sobbed silently in to my chest "shhhh dean it ok" I said he held on to me tighter almost like he was making sure I wasn't gonna leave so I held on to him tighter to show him I aint going anywhere
A few minutes later I pulled away and looked at him I wiped his tears away and kissed him "it's ok dean" I said I laid back down pulling him down with me he just buried his head in to my chest and held on to me tightly as more tears escape his eyes I put my arm around him and messed round with his hair with my other hand "I love you soo much dean you mean the world to me I don't know what I would do if I ever lost you" I said after a while his grip round me loosened so I looked down I moved his head a little to see his face he had fallen asleep I wiped the tears that were on his cheeks and kissed his forehead and just kept my arm around him I put my other arm round him to his head still on my chest
