The next day
Roman pov
I was in dean's room with jojo who was on my lap dean was sound asleep next to us he had had a rough night last night having not just a seizure but a nightmare too and then had gone in to a panic attack and it took a while for me to get him to calm down enough to be able to fall back asleep jojo had came on earlier this morning and has been on my lap since she came in as she had seen dean was still asleep
A few hours later
Jojo had left the room to go downstairs with seth and sami I looked beside me to dean who had just moved on to his side facing me and mumbled something incoherent "dean" I said his eyes slowly opened "you alright?" I asked "hmmm" he mumbled "dean? You alright?" I asked again he yawned before nodding his head alittle "you sure" I asked "hmm head feels alittle funny" he mumbled "funny? What kind of funny?" I asked sitting up and turning to face him properly "I don't know.....just feels really weird" dean mumbled "dean sit up a minute dude" I said he slowly sat up leaning his back on the head rest I held his head in my hands and looked in to his eyes they were slightly clouded over and unfocused "anything else that feels weird" I asked worried "everything a little blurry" he mumbled "alight dude lie back down" I said he slowly laid back down and rests his head back on his pillow he looked up at me "ro I really don't feel good" dean mumbled "bro I don't know what I can do I don't know what's wrong" I said worried "ro.....I..I think im gonna be sick" he mumbled I looked around grabbing the trash can in his room and say him up just in time for him to throw up in to it I rubbed his back slowly a few minutes later he finally stopped looking up again what colour he had had in his face was now gone and he was extremely pale his eyes now glassy he slowly laid back down his eyes closing the second his head hit the pillow but it took a few minutes for his breathing to even out and for him to fall asleep I went and got rid of the trash can in the bathroom and when I came back to dean's room sami had just got to dean's door "hey" he said seeing me "hey" I said "How's he doing" he asked "not good man his just gone back to sleep he woke up saying his head felt funny and said everything was alittle blurry then he ended up throwing up" I said "really that doesn't sound too good" he said "no it dont" I said "you let me know if you need anything I leave you with him as he seems comfortable with ypu there" he said I nodded as he went back down stairs and I went back in to dean's room he was still asleep i got on the bed slowly trying not to wake dean but it Still woke him up he looked over at me his eyes less blurry now and more focused "hey sorry didn't mean to wake you" I said "it's ok" he mumbled yawning "how you feeling" I asked "alittle better my head doesn't feel as weird but I do feel alittle sick" he mumbled "alight dude just try get some more sleep hopefully it will help" I said he nodded "you don't have to stay in here with me you know?" He mumbled "I do incase you have a seizure and you aint comfortable with the others being around you yet" I said "go see your daughter ill be ok" he wispered "bro?" I went to talk but he cut me off "go just send sami or seth in I don't care im gonna go back to sleep anyway go spend some time with her she needs to you and I already feel bad for you being here with me instead of with her" he mumbled "she came in this morning when you were still asleep she wants to be in here to help you smile again" I said "ro go" he said "just let her come in here she misses you man we all miss you we want you to get better" I said "I.....ro...?" He said there seemed to be something he wanted to say "what dude" I asked "I.....I just you guys ask me what got made me go of the deep end like I have and honestly I don't know the nightmares my fears of losing you guys it was to much for me and I mean I wasn't really in the best of places before the nightmares started everything just became to much and pushing you guys away I guess was a way of making myself feel like I was protecting you and I guess just everything started adding up as things got worse and alcohol was my escape I guess in a way it's the only real time I got where I wasn't being paranoid about everything and then with all the drinking I wasn't really hungry that much I don't know man it just all started stacking up and im gonna be honest here no matter how much you aint gonna wanna hear this.......I...I wanted to die ro I was planing on killing myself I was gonna go to the bridge and I was gonna jump" he said tears falling down his cheeks as well as mine "dean never and I mean never worry about losing me or sami sami's been your brother for years before me and seth came in to your life his there no matter what and im never ever gonna walk away from you man your family and family means never leave anyone behind and I would never leave you behind dean never and as for seth i can't speak for him his an idiot who honestly doesn't deserve your love after what his put you thur"I said "I said I love you roman your my brother and in couldn't of asked for a better person to be my brother and best friend" he said I pulled him in to a hug "i love you too dude and im glad I can call you my little brother even tho your a pain in the ass I wouldn't have you any other way man I love you bro" I said
Once we both calmed down dean went back to sleep I laid on my side looking at him with alittle smile on my face happy that he opened up to me and trusted me enough to tell me what he did I means alot that he told me
finally got another update done on this book it's been awhile hope you like it and please leave feedback on what you think and vote if you like it thanks for reading :) :) :) :) :)
