roman pov
a few days later dean will be allowed to leave hospital today his had a few more seizures they had been feeding him food though a tube as we had told them he hadn't been eating a lot and i hated seeing him in this state his lost a lot of weight he needs to get his hair cut and he needs to shave and just clean himself up abit get his life back on track cause its heartbreaking seeing him like this and now the seizures are back too thats gonna be even harder because he hated having people with him all the time and beens right now he just always wants to be left alone we dont really no what to do
a few hours later
and we were on our way back to my place seth had gone home to get the stuff so we have it here with us deans still very quiet and distant from us and just asks us to leave him alone even in hospital he always asked us to leave and that he just wanted to be left alone witch always upset us jojo is finding it hard to understand why dean is being the way he is and its hard to explain to her whats going on with him and now with the seizures too shes even more confused then what she was before as she doesn't understand what a seizure really is
we got to my place and went inside dean went straight upstairs and to his room jojo went and sat on the sofa with sami sami put the tv on for them while i went upstairs to deans room and went in he was already lying in bed i went over to his bed and sat down at the end of it "dean bro how you feeling" i asked "why cant you guys just leave me alone like i ask you too" he mumbled "dude you know why we are worried about you" i said "whatever just leave me alone i want be left alone I'm tired" he mumbled putting his head in to his pillow "dude come on don't be like this its been weeks why wont you just talk to one of us let us help you" i said upset "i don't need help roman now leave me alone" he mumbled "i ain't leavening you alone you could have a seizure" i said
"don't care leave me alone" he mumbled "you might not care but i do....sami seth and jojo do too" i said "go away please just leave me alone" he mumbled his voice sounded like it cracked a little "dean look at me" i said "no" he mumbled his "please" i said he turned his head so i could see it and opened his eyes slightly he had tears in his eyes "dude come here" i said he shook his head but i pulled him up and in to a hug anyways he didnt hold back at first but then put his arms around me and held on to m tightly as he let his tears fall now i rubbed his back trying to help in anyway i could i hated seeing him like this and i just wish he would let someone in to help him
"i can't do this anymore Roman I can't" he said in tears witch made tears come to my eyes
"Will you do something for me just this one thing" i asked tears now falling too
"what is it" he asked his voice cracking
"Will you let me in let me help you" i asked my voice also cracking
he didn't answer me just cried
"roman?" he mumbled in to my chest
"yeah" i asked
"can you just hold me and just say everything will be alright please" he said in tears
"come here dude" i said lying down
And Dean got back in to bed and lays on my chest and cried i mess about with his hair hoping it will calm him down enough for him to be able to fall asleep
"Sshh it's alright I'm here i got you" i whispered in his ear as he just continued to cry
"shhh i got you" i said trying to calm him down i rub his back and mess about with his hair with my other hand "why does all the bad stuff always happen to me" he cried out
"its gonna be alright dude i promise" i said
after a little while dean had calm down and fallen asleep still on my chest i just continued to rub his back slowly to try make sure he feels safe and wont have a nightmare we'll have to try get him to eat after too a few minutes later i saw the door open and sami came in and looked at us and got a little smile on his face when he saw dean asleep and holding on to me "he let you stay" he whispered i just nodded a little "thats a good sign" he whispered "yeah" i whispered back he smiled at me and left the room closing the door quietly so he doesn't freak dean out or wake him
that night
dean had eaten a little bit of food but it was still barely anything before saying he was full he also had a seizure sami took jojo upstair when dean started having it while me and seth got the stuff and had got dean back on to his back putting the tube down his throat to keep his airways clear it stopped after a few minutes and we removed the tube putting the oxygen mask on him it took a little long for him to regain consciousness but after about 5 minutes he did me and seth helped him up and took him upstairs and put him in bed seth said he'll clean the stuff and told me to stay with dean so i did he was already asleep so i got in bed next to him 5 minutes later seth came up putting the bag down next to the bed just incase and said goodnight to me then left the room i looked beside me to dean he was still very pale and looking really bad hopefully he wont freak out when he wakes up cause I'm in the room i then closed my eyes going to sleep im a pretty light sleeper so if anything happens i'll wake up
yay finally updated lol thanks for all the votes means alot and would also like to say thank you to Reigns_Ambrose for helping me with this chapter :) :) :) :) :) :)
