Still dean pov
I got up and walked to the bathroom locking myself in a few minutes later there was a knock at the door "dean let me in" roman said " no go away" I said back "dean please unlock the door im sorry I didn't mean that " seth said "fuck you" I said back "dean im sorry I really am please forgive me" he then said I didn't answer him I just sat myself down on the floor in the corner and pulled my knees up to my chest and just put my head down in to my knees "dean? Open the door" roman said I didn't answer so they knocked again "dean?" Roman said they tried opening the door the noise was annoying me "what" I snapped "dean open this god damn door" roman said I got up and just leaned on the sink with my hands and looked in the mirror I looked like shit I was so pale
I punched the mirror the glass smashing "dean?!" Roman and seth shout I leaned my back on the wall
Trying to calm down "dean if you don't open this door right now im just gonna kick it open" roman said my hand was killing me I started going dizzy and every went in to a blur I knew what was happening but before I could even think of wether to open the door or not everything went black
Roman pov
"Dean if you don't open this door right now im just gonna kick it open" I said he didn't open it or answer so I kicked it open and he was on the floor convulsing and foaming at the mouth I went over to him getting him on to his side seth just froze in fear because of what he said before "seth go get the stuff" I said he ran to get the stuff he got back here giving me the tube I put it down his throat carefully and rolled him on his back they went on for about 10 minutes before they finally stopped I took the tube out and put the breathing mask on him turning on the oxygen seth just sat there frozen in fear
15 minutes later dean still hadn't regained consciousness and I was scared I said to seth we would give it a few more minutes if he hadn't regained consciousness by then we would call for an ambulance
After a few more minutes he didn't regain consciousness I got my phone out and as I was on the phone to them his eyes opened slightly then closed again I told them to cancel the ambulance and hung up
I put my hand down on dean's chest "dean?" I said he opened his eyes slightly looking up at me
"It's gonna be ok dude" I said he closed his eyes again seth came a little closer but not to close he felt bad because of what he said before
Dean then opened his eyes
He turned his head towards seth
And moved his hand to the mask pulling it down abit "im sorry" he mumbled to seth "for what?" Seth asked dean didn't answer answer just moved his head back and looked up at me I moved my hand of his chest to the mask putting it back on him properly then moved my hand back to his chest after a while he moved his hand back to the mask going to pull it off I gave him a hand getting it of and then turned the oxygen off I sat him slowly I kept a hold of him
"Dean what did you mean before when you said sorry?" Seth asked
"Well im not dead am I that what you wanted aint it me dead dean mumbled back going to get up but very unsteady I gave him a hand
"Dean im sorry I didn't mean that I don't want you dead I never want to loss you" seth said tears in his eye dean didn't answer he moved away from me and stumbled out the door and went to one of the bedrooms "what is wrong with me why do I fuck up everything" seth said " you dont you were just shocked and upset that's all" I said
"But how could I say that to him" he said we left the room seth went to his and dean's and I went to the one dean was in and he was changing he got down to his boxers then stumbled over to the bed and falling on to it pulling the covers down and then pulling them over his body I went over to him and sat on the end of the bed
"You ok dude" I asked "no" he mumbled "he didn't mean to say it dude" I said "course he didn't" he mumbled sarcastically
I laid down on top of the covers looking up at the ceiling
"What you said he was just a shock and we didn't see it coming" I said "you didn't say anything" he mumbled "we weren't snapping at each other people say bad things they don't mean on the heat of the moment" I said "what ever im going to sleep" he mumbled "ok dude just think about what I said" I said he nodded then closed his eyes I stayed there with him
