Lately, I am not sure what is going on with me, but I just don't want to be around anyone. I get aggravated at any socializing I have to do besides the boyfriend. I would much rather stay silent than say much. I don't have friends anymore with me mentally growing and separating from everyone. I just don't want to be around anyone. I would love to take a vow of silence for right now. No one seems to care much about anything I have to say lately. Even my views on here have stalled out. Who's to say anyone actually reads my stuff anyway? Maybe this app just counts every time I log in as a view. I have no idea. I know that I am not super important to people around me. I've known this since I can remember. But the second I say I have no friends, everyone and their brother comes out of the wood work saying they are my best friends. I'm just exhausted from social media, being around people, always trying to be in a good mood. No one cares what is wrong when you act bubbly. Every single person is out for themselves and being an empath I get the brunt of it as everyone thinks I want to listen to their idiotic stories and their half baked plans that a light breeze could demolish. Besides the times where I have to talk, I wonder if anyone would even notice I stopped talking all together?I wish I could win the lottery and just take a couple month trip and leave my phone at home.
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The Incomplete Ramblings of an Insomniac
Non-FictionBasically word vomit from my mind of my deepest thoughts and feelings I could only tell a complete stranger.
