The world that I cry

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Morcar's pov...
The world felt more silent than ever right now. Not a nice silence either, it felt more like a loud silence if that makes sense. Asteria was dead, she looks very dead. But- but Arielle.. I close my eyes and push my legs into my stomach. She left me and I said all of those horrible things. I thought that maybe if I say harsh things it would make her stop, but that's just Arielle I guess. I am never going to forgive myself, I can't, not after something like this. I shouldn't have told her to leave Mortinger, she was miserable, but at least she was safe. I could have just stayed with her there, I could have just stayed. Or maybe I should have just stayed away. If I didn't go back to her, she wouldn't be gone. But I couldn't stand watching her anymore. I followed her for weeks before actually going to her. I watched her every move, her every moment. It is strange thinking back on it, but I know she would forgive me. Would you forgive me Arielle? I don't want to go over to her still body, I don't think I can bear seeing her like that. I close my eyes and keep them shut, too frightened to open them. Would you be the same Arielle? Would you be as scared as me?

Snow fell down on the overgrown grass as we both sat and watched it fall, staring intently at the purity of it all. I slowly put my hand in hers, keeping my eyes stuck onto the outside weather.

"Mum! Dad! It's snowing!" I look down to see my two beautiful daughters rush through the brown oak door and to the living room window, where we are sitting.

"Yes, and tomorrow we can go out in it." Arielle teases, knowing that they want to go out now.

"Now mummy, please! Dad would let us." They frown before looking over to me. I put my hands up and shake my head.

"It's bedtime, now off you go I'll be in to tuck you in, just give us a minute okay?" The twins chuckle lightly before running back to their rooms, trying not to get too excited. I run my hands through Arielle's hair before picking her up. She wraps her legs around my waist and kisses me softly. Oh, how I love her so much, she is just so perfect.

"What?" She smiles, throwing me a confused look.

"I am so lucky." I grin, pulling her in for another one of her perfect kisses. I lay her down steadily on the sofa and climb on top of her, so both of our eyes met. I finally felt safe, at home, with a family.

"Stop," She laughs before pulling me closer to her. I kissed her neck a little bit quicker which caught her by surprise. She grips onto my neck a little bit harder and lets out a deep breath. "Morcar." She whispers, trying to contain herself. I place my lips just below her ear and suck on it gently, leaving a small mark there. "You need to stop." She mutters under her breath. Confusion struck me and I pulled away from her so our noses were almost touching.

"Stop what?" I ask, unsure about what I have done.

"This isn't real," she says gently, putting her hand on my cheek. I pull fully back from her and get up from the couch.

"What do you mean? W-we have kids and-"

"Morcar," She gets up from the sofa and giggles slightly. "I'm dead." She chuckles harder.

"Don't say things like that." I snap at her.

"This isn't happening right now, you know that. Open your eyes. It's okay."

"Why can't I just stay here forever?" I whimper, choking on my tears.

"Because this isn't real." And before I knew it, Arielle disappeared right in front of my eyes. Darkness fills my eyes so I can't see anything anymore. Just the darkness of my soul.