Save me from myself

Blast From The Past

Next weeks she was busy with unpacking and getting things into their places. She did some shopping and online shopping while Willow had her naps. She was glad she had things keeping her busy, otherwise she would have lost her mind.

She also spent time with her parents. She enjoyed watching Willow spend time with them and her parents enjoying it too. She couldn't help but to remind the time her father was angry at her, disappointed of her life choices in general but angry at her for hooking up with Ronnie, getting knocked up and keeping the baby. It was like she though about someone else. It felt like at that moment when she saw him widening his hands for Willow to come to him. The frown that had been on his face once was now a smile, filled with warmth and laughter making her almost forget the past. She smiled sighing, remembering the little fight she had had with Ronnie before she came to her parents. A fight over a silly thing, but his anxiety and the fact they both missed each other, made everything worse.

Suddenly her father looked up and behind her, saying "Robert. Hey." Sam closed her eyes, cursing the moment. She knew already this is going to be a problem.

"What brings you here?" Seth asked, glancing at Sam. She got up and turned around, trying to be polite "Robert."

"Sam!" Robert said surprised "Didn't know you were here." 

Sam frowned "It's my parents house, where else I'd be."

"I thought you didn't get along since you chose this gangster." Robert spat out and looked around, asking in a teasing matter "Where is he anyway?"

"Well, you thought wrong." Sam said and started gathering her things in her bag, glancing at her father "I'm just gonna go, okay." and said to Willow "Come here, baby."

"Don't go on my account!" Robert teased and crouched  down to greet Willow "Look at her! You've grown so much!" he looked at her "Remember me?"

"Of course she wouldn't!" Sam spat out and took Willow in her arms. Her parents looked at her, sad, knowing she wouldn't stay whatever they say.

"I was almost her father figure." Robert teased. "What is that you want?" Seth asked irritated and Sam's mom added "Why are you here?" Sam was already walking away  when she stopped on her tracks and took few steps back "She always has had a father. You were just too blind to accept it!" and walked away. "Honey, drive safe!" he mother wanted to follow her. She walked to her car, angry and sad, hearing her parents scorn Robert the way he had acted. But she wasn't gonna stay and listen. She wanted to get out of there, as far away from him as possible. She put Willow in her car, fake smiling to her "It's okay." but sighed realizing she was the one who needed assuring at that moment. She sat in her car, sad that Ronnie wasn't there, but then again she was relieved he wasn't because the way he would have acted. She worried about mentioning it to Ronnie but then again she worried that he'd be angry if she kept it from him. 

She drove home, trying to relax and calm down before it was time he'd call. When she was at home  she put Willow to play in the living room. Suddenly her phone rang. She looked at the caller ID, surprised it was Ronnie. She sighed before putting a fake smile on

"Heyyyy!" she said grinning but her smile fade as soon as she saw him being really pissed "What's wrong?"

"Really?" he asked irritated "You wanna go down that road?" making her completely confused but before she could ask, he asked "How was your day? Did anything fun today, huh?"

"Ronnie..." she said sad, realizing he knew.

"Don't Ronnie me!" he said angry and tapped something on his phone screen. Her phone beeped and she opened the message, seeing a photo taken of her and Willow, from the moment she was packing her bag.

"Did Robert sent you this??" she asked, feeling her blood boiling already.

"Who else?!" he barked and ventilated and was restless "I want you to tell me everything! And WHY THE FUCK I have to hear this from him??!"

"Stop it Ronnie!" she whined, tears in her eyes "It's not what you think!"

"Isn't it!?" he asked "Start talking then!"

"There's nothing to talk!" she shouted through tears "He came, I packed and left! I can't believe that after all we've been through you wont trust me" she was insulted by the thought that he would think something like that.

"Really? Really?! Is that what happened?!" he asked in disbelief.

"Yes!" she said "I don't know why he came there! But suddenly he was there and insulting me! Of course I wanted to get away! I knew this would happen!"

"Oh you knew, WHAT!? That I'd be pissed?? Is that why I had to hear it from him?! That you weren't gonna tell me?!" he was pissed.

"No! Please Ronnie, calm down!" she said sad "I just came from there! Of course I would have told you!"  Seeing him like that, anxious and confused, made her sad. He clearly had some issues. She knew he had skipped some therapy sessions on the tour, making it harder to process his emotions and fears.  She wanted to say something to him, but didn't know how and what else there is to say. She wasn't sure if she'd make things worse if she said. Instead they both stayed quiet for a moment. She could see he was a mess, but despite that he tried to calm down.

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Hey guys! I'm so sorry for the slow update! I've been bit busier than usual+ I hit the wall big time + I'm writing and updating 2 other strorys weekly and I've got something else cooking up. I try to give my best.

Stay safe!