Save me from myself

Quality time

Music added. Sorry for adding so much Starset songs. I really love them.

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She was finishing nursing her daughter, when she heard a car pull over, music booming.

"Ronnie." Sam said to herself, butterflies waking in her stomach and she told her daughter "Daddy's here."

A minute later he knocked on the door but without waiting for a reply, he walked in and put his keys on the table.

"Hey." he said "Bon appetite."

"Thanks." she said smiling and pointed her stare on the bathroom "Hands."

"Yeah." he said and went to wash his hands. He came back and sat next to her, his arm on the backrest of the couch, looking at his daughter sucking greedy.

"Nice tits." he chuckled.

"Ronnie..." Sam whined. Although they both could sense the pull towards each other, the sweet temptation, she knew they had to work some shit out, otherwise it'll blow up in their faces. She looked his face, the features of it, the teasing nature of it, his beautiful brown eyes looking at their daughter. The fact that they were a family, the chemistry of it, she felt it adding up to her needs. The memories of their night on the roof. It made her hot again. She would have wanted to kiss him, so bad. But then Willow let go of her nipple and she was pulled back to the reality. She lifted her up when Ronnie stood up and took his shirt off, revealing some new tattoos.

"What are you doing?" Sam asked uncertain.

He grinned and said "Don't sweat it. I read that in order to make up the lost time, I should keep skin-to-skin contact with her." She blushed "Oh, yeah.. Sure." and stood up, asking surprised "You read a baby book?" giving Willow to him.

"Nah. I googled it." he said as her hands touched his skin and she could see goosebumps on it. He took her, holding her like she was the most fragile thing in the world, about to break, his eyes on her "Heyy." he whispered to Willow, nudging his nose against her chubby cheek. Then he sat down and put her on his chest. Sam looked at his tattooed chest, his arms holding the baby securely close to him. For a moment it seemed that their baby was his safe harbor. Like he was calming down, his inner storm settling down, his guard lowering. She could see he liked the feeling. She took her phone and took a picture of that special moment.

"When's mom gonna be here?" he asked quiet and calm. He was calmest she'd seen him. She came out of her moment and said looking at her watch "She should be here soon." She resumed looking at them, making him smirk and grin "I still can't believe we made this."

"Do you regret it?" she asked suddenly, still looking at Willow.
"What, the baby?" he asked frowning.
"No, I mean us hooking up and... well yes, the consequences." she rolled her eyes, blushing.
For a moment he had a devilish grin on, probably reminding the night their daughter was conceived but then he sighed and got serious "I must admit, I was in a shitty place then and didn't react to the news too well, but I couldn't. Having her here, close to me, is the best feeling." Their conversations was interrupted by a knock on the door. Sam stood up and went to open it.

"Hey, mom." she said smiling.

"Hey." she said walking in and saw Ronnie in there "Hey.. Ronnie."

"Hey, mom." he said to her.

"Are you guys ready to go?" she asked.

"As soon as he's done." Sam said taking her bag.

"5 more minutes." Ronnie murmured, completely calm, looking at his baby. Sam's mom was surprised, making funny faces to her.

"How's dad?" Sam asked randomly.

"Same old, same old." she said sad "Still ignoring the whole thing."

"Yeah, well, he's ignoring my calls too." Sam said sad.

"Hold the fuck up!" Ronnie came out of his zen moment and sat up carefully, patting Willows bum "Just because I'm back in the picture??"

Sam nodded, sad.

"That's fucked up, Sam!" he said standing up "He abandons you so you'd make me abandon my kid?"

"Pretty much, yeah." Sam said sad.

"Well, fuck, like this gonna happen!" he said irritated and walked to Sam "I meant what I said in the interview- I'm gonna be there for my kid." She nodded, feeling overwhelmed. He put his free hand around her shoulders and pecked a kiss to her forehead. After a moment he looked at his watch on her shoulder and sighed "We should go."

"Yeah.. um." she came out of the moment and pulled away, reaching her hands to take the baby "Let me take her." He pecked a kiss on Willow's head and Sam took her and told her mom "She just ate."

"Ready?" Ronnie asked putting on his t-shirt.

"Yeah." she said looking at his body. He could see it.

"See ya, mom." he said to Sandra and they walked out to his car.
The drive was weird, quiet. She felt weird. On the physical level she felt the connection but on a mental level she felt like she sat next to a stranger. She had fallen for him based on their attraction, knowing nothing about him. Only what was online. But this wasn't personal. She needed to get to know him more. Probably he felt the same because he had called her the other day and had asked if she would want to hang out.
"I'm really glad you called me." she said after she had stared out from the window for some time. "There's always someone present or Willow needing attention.."  He glanced at her and smiled "Yeah, I thought.. you know.."
"Yeah." she nodded and turned her body more to face him "I think we really need this." She said blushing and added quickly "For Willow."
"Of course!" he said sharp, bit too loud. He seemed bit nervous and looked the road ahead.
"So, where are we going?" she said after a silent moment.
He glanced at her and smiled "I thought we could buy takeout and go to the beach. You hungry?" She nodded.
"Awesome!" he said with new energy and switched a lane.