Save me from myself

On The Beach

Music added.

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They went to grab some tacos along and drove to the beach, talking about random things.
"It's so beautiful here." she said standing on the beach, looking around, taking it all in.
"Yeah. It's one of my favourite places. More private." he said standing next to her.
"Come on. There's a place were we can sit." he said and started to walk. They sat on a large driftwood and started to unpack the food, her handing him his drink. After they had taken few bites they talked about things. He told her about his therapy, about his PTSD and that he's having a hard time. She nodded, feeling sad, thinking of how much he had suffered. She wanted to hug him, feeling tears pooling in her eyes. She swiped them off and said "I'm glad that you're dealing with it. You've come a long way since then and, obviously it takes time.." She took a deep breath before saying "And you know, Ronnie, we're always gonna be there for you."
He looked at her for some time, digesting what she had said "I appreciate it. Really." He was sincere. He looked in her eyes, his intensive stare reassuring that he meant it. After a moment he took a deep breath, straightening his back and blurted out "Enough about my fucked up life. What you've been up to?" She sighed "Fell for a bad guy, got knocked up. Now my life pretty much goes around Willow." She shrugged her shoulders.
"There's more, I'm sure of it." he said and added "Albert? Or what's his name? He's such a lowlife dipshit that I don't even remember his name!" He was annoyed.
"Robert." she said and took a deep breath before continuing "After you...left I.."
"I didn't leave! I was sentenced to a fucking prison, Sam!" he was annoyed.
"I know." she said quick "But at that time I didn't. I was sad. Until I saw the news and it hit me really hard."
"Like this wasn't enough I found out that I was pregnant..." she looked down on her hands. He put his hand on her shoulder, looking at her with regret.
"After I got over my shock I told my parents.." she said and wiped away a single tear.
"How did they took it?" he was curious.
"They we're in shock and dad freaked out when I said you're not able to take responsibility.." she said looking at him.
"Oh fuck.." he said quietly.
"I had tough times, the gossip in the media only adding up.." she said fighting with tears.
"Those motherfuckers..." he said regretfully.
"But your dad reached out to me." she smiled through tears, wiping them away "I don't know what I would've done without him."
"You're a tough cookie, you would have survived it." he said determined.
"Yeah, but with what cost." she said serious.
"He's alright." Ronnie said serious. His dad wasn't always like that. They too had a rough past "He's changed a lot. And I think Willow has him wrapped around her tiny finger."
"Yes she does." she said, wide grin on her face "After I started feeling her move, I calmed down a bit." Ronnie was listening her, looking to the distance.

"I didn't feel so alone anymore" she said but Ronnie cut her off "I fucking missed out so much!"

"I know." she wiped her tears away and turned more towards Ronnie "Hey.. It's okay. Here." she took out her phone and scrolled in the gallery "I'll show you some pictures and videos. It's like you were never gone." She went closer to him and showed him pictures of her belly, outfit of the day selfies, videos from the ultrasound and moving belly. He looked them, some longer than other, chuckling, grinning, gasping, sending some of them to his phone, glancing at her, saying things like "Look how cute!"; "Dad showed me this."; "Oh my gosh!"; "Fuck, this is so unreal!". When he got to the delivery video, he was quiet, looking at it. He took her hand, squeezing it. That made her cry. She knew he would have given everything to be there, but he couldn't. Instead he was kept distant and was living through all those moments now. When the video ended he straightened his back and took a deep breath and let it out "Such a rush!" She looked at him, smiling, nodding, tears running down from her cheeks.
"There's more." she said coming out of the moment and they continued looking through pictures. She liked their moment, they where so close, reminiscing on her pregnant times. She glanced at him for several times, seeing him up close. She liked what he saw. He was still that Ronnie, but then again he wasn't. He had changed and she couldn't quite put her finger on it. He was sober, that she knew. Also more grown up. He was different with her, too. More serious. She liked it, that gave her hope that the co-parenting would be easier.
"Fucking Albert again!" he suddenly said loud, taking her phone in his hand and stood up. He continued looking though the pictures.
"Ronnie..." she said sad and tried to take back her phone but Ronnie didn't let her "Why the fuck this guy has to be on every picture, huh?" he asked accusingly but before she could answer to him, Ronnie continued "Look at that! BBQ party! Hardware store! Buying groceries!"
"Ronnie, please. Calm down!" she begged.
"Next thing you're going to baby yoga together!" he shouted.
"You're not making any sense, Ronnie.." she said "Please calm down."
"This guy doesn't make any sense!" he shouted "Are you in love with him or something?!"
"In l... WHAT?" she was in shock "Where is this coming from?" Ronnie made her eyes as an answer.
"I told you! He is a family friend," Sam said irritated.
"No you didn't!" he fired back.
"Yes I did!" she argued "Well I'm telling you now! He is.. was just a friend who was there when I really needed one."
"Doesn't seem to be just friend to me!" he said with a warning tone.
"Well, it's the truth. At least for me." she said and asked "You trust me don't you?"
"I don't know who to trust anymore these days.." he said bit calmer. She looked at him, seeing there's no point in arguing anymore or try to prove something to him. She took a deep breath and said calm "I'd appreciate it if you'd give me a ride home." She stood up, took her garbage and walked pass him, taking her phone from him.
"As you wish." he said rolling his eyes and followed her.