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Chapter 52: Awakening Voices

Even though things have finally been feeling a little lighter, I'm still perplexed by the events that had taken place. It wasn't like I was expecting myself to get over it or anything, but I guess I had hoped I wouldn't be feeling this sad.

I would like to say things were getting better, but that might be a lie.

I think when It all happened, I was in a state of shock... but now, the reality of last months events is settling into my mind.

Forever, Steven will be the first guy that ever saw my breasts... and it was against my will...

That thought alone makes me sick to my stomach.

It wasn't long before my parents started to act like everything was back to normal, like nothing had happened in the first place. Though I can understand their mentality, as part of me also wanted what happened to disappear from my mind all together.

However, that was nearly impossible due to the memory of his face popping into my brain every time I try to get some rest. Every night I struggle to fall asleep, and sometimes It doesn't even happen.

Still, he was only in my mind... after all, the picture was gone... and Steven wouldn't be coming back.

I could finally wake up to the things that were happening around me...

Including listening to Namjoon's new song 'P.D.D', made with our old friend Warren G. At first, Namjoon had initially warned me before listening that the song wasn't about me, but was written for his haters, months ago. He said maybe I shouldn't listen to it for a bit, but my curiosity to his concern only made my listening inevitable.

I soon understood his concern the second the song started playing and the phrase "Please don't die" blasted through the speakers.

The words struck me right to my core... reaching the pit of my stomach.

...it was weird... I know this song was written about Namjoon's haters... but for some reason I felt like it was too much of a coincidence. Almost like Namjoon somehow subconsciously knew I was going through a lot. Or maybe it was the universe sending me a message...but I figured it must be a sign... or maybe just I want it to be a sign.

Either way, it's fuelled me to get better... I'd stay for them, until I can find a reason within myself.

...

"Hey there butterfly, how's today been?"

Ever since that day on the beach, the boys have been treating me like fine china. Only positive thought and sweet voices were allowed my way.

It was sweet and totally obvious, but nevertheless needed right now.

"It was okay, but I got my English homework back today... and my grade wasn't so good" I admitted as I scratched my head in embarrassment.

"ah don't worry sweetheart, school isn't everything" Yoongi smiled at me as if there was nothing wrong, but Namjoon was quick to but in.

"-what Yoongi means to say is that...you've had a lot going on, it's okay, we believe in you petal".

"thanks Joonie, what have you guys been up to?"

"well..."

"NAMJOON HAS A MIXTAPE COMING OUT!" Jungkook announced all happy before Namjoon had a chance to continue.