STAY WITH US (BTSxreader)

Chapter 31: confessions and apologies

No-one had said anything for well over thirty seconds and I was starting to get a little worried. Perhaps I had implied something that wasn't even there... I was implying that they all wanted something more than friendship... but that was absurd, they didn't think of me that way.

"Sorry, I'm sorry for making this such a big deal- "

"Y/N don't apologise" Yoongi's voice came through strong, but I continued.

"No, I know the kiss didn't mean anything, I shouldn't have even thought that way" I started stumbling around, fumbling over my feet from the weight of the awkwardness in the air.

"But Y/N-" Taehyung looked like he was about to object but Jungkook was quick to shut him up.

"Taehyung don't" Taehyung seemed to huff in annoyance at his comment, a few tired gazes were also shared between the boys.

"Oh sorry, I forgot you were Jungkook's" Taehyung turned to me, the sass was evident in his voice, though it wasn't really aimed at me.

"what-what does that mean?" Finally, I had a chance to ask every single one of them all together. Turning to Jungkook I found him completely stumped, all traces of rage gone, now replaced with uncertainty.

"I- I'll explain tomorrow" There was a few seconds of silence till a sigh from Namjoon finally broke the tension.

"come on, let's get ready to go home, we'll discuss this another time" No one looked happy as we all filed out of the dance studio. Especially me, I felt like I had just ruined everything, they wouldn't want to be friend with me anymore, not after that.

Luckily, my fears were calmed a little as Jimin's hand slowly slinked into mine, squeezing tightly. His smile made me want to cry, but I kept myself together, pulling him closer, I prayed that all of this would be sorted by morning.

...

After a very awkward dinner, I chose tonight to sleep with Hoseok, he had been acting sweet to me for most of the night. Giving me small hugs and holding my hand, just like Jimin, while the others had all been keeping their distance.

Lying in bed, I waited for Hoseok to join me, I stared at the ceiling, going over everything that had happened today.

"You look like you're having a mental breakdown" Hoseok chuckled from where he was standing, just a few metres away.

"Did I just ruin everything Hobi?" I asked quietly, my eyes not shifting from my spot of the roof.

"What do you mean chicken?" He started to crawl up beside me, laying on his front.

"Did I just ruin our friendship?... the boys, none of them can look at me" I mumbled as my eyes started to water.

"Of course, not Y/n, we all still love you just as much as we did this morning. I mean you should see how some of the guys are treating Taehyung, Jimin even suggested for him to sleep in the hallway as punishment."

"No Hobi! They mustn't put this on him, Taehyung was just being Taehyung, I was the one that made it personal"

"Y/n no one is mad at you...besides Tae still kissed you without your consent... The guys are just coming to terms with some of the things you said, of course we all kind of knew that relationships as idols would be difficult... but I guess we just didn't know it would be THIS difficult" I looked over to him to see him watching me, a sad smile laying on his features.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, You're just so kissable!!" He giggled as he leaned forward for a big kiss, but I pushed him away playfully "...maybe it doesn't mean something for you, maybe it doesn't have to... but that doesn't mean It doesn't mean something for us... or for me" He became quiet again as we stared at each other, and my heart threatened to combust.