STAY WITH US (BTSxreader)

Chapter 24: Winter Battles

As I was on the plane journey home, I thought about the last 12 hours that had passed. My brain thrashed about as I tried to comprehend what might or might not have happened.

It started last night when we were all having our last dinner before I inevitably went home. The atmosphere was a little solemn but nothing too bad that took away from the boys and I having a nice last evening. Jungkook had been acting indifferent towards me for most of the day, but I blamed it on the fact that I'd be leaving tomorrow.

"Awww our Jungkook-ie is sad" I don't know why Jimin was teasing him so much, when it was only a few weeks ago where he had been begging me to come home.

"Shut up Hyung..." His tone was in no way playful, it made me a little nervous to sleep with him tonight.

I admit my clinginess had been a little off the charts since we got back to the dorm. Constantly back hugging people and touching them in any sort of way I could just for a little bit of skin ship. I even went as far as holding Tae's hand while we brushed our teeth together, the action being too cute for most of the boys to handle.

When it was time for sleep, I could feel the tension radiating off of Jungkook as soon as I laid down. I was scared to move, in case he would snap, but I knew I was desperate to touch him.

"Night guys see you in the morning" Just like that the lights were off, and I held everything within me together not to cry.

Jungkook wasn't moving to cuddle me like he had been saying he'd do for most of the week. I was starting to get worried, but soon plucked up the courage and scooted my hand under the covers to where he was. I could feel him jump a little, not expecting the contact and I felt like maybe I should pull away. However, I didn't, I couldn't, who knew when the next time would be, where I would be able to do this. As my hand slipped into his I squeezed it a little, subtly telling him that I needed him.

He looked over to me and I to him, we both looked like we were on the brink of tears. Though also only really concerned with the emotions of the other person. Both of us reached out to each other with worry, turning so our legs curled into each other and our faces so close. It makes me laugh a little in silence at how we only cared about each other, our own emotions forgotten, though we were both occupied with the same worry...

"come back to me" it was the smallest whisper that I barely heard it even though I was only centimeters away. I nodded in reply almost in a trance, captured by the beauty of the boy in front of me.

He shuffled, cradling me into him as if I were fine china, so precious in his touch. His hands were warm on my skin as they stroked the hair out of my face. We stayed here, and I was sure that I had become so comfortable that I had fallen asleep. It had seemed like hours had passed and I was barely awake, honestly, I might not have been awake... Though I can't stop thinking about something I heard Jungkook say...and do... or at least I think it was Jungkook, it was either him or my dreams playing with me.

"Y/N" I felt the softest, warmest touch, feathered lightly in the middle of my cheek, so faint it could have been a butterfly. "Y/N, I love you" There again was another soft touch, this time wetter and fuller. "Come back to me... come back to me" The words faded out into nothingness, all to be forgotten till morning.

I recall having no dreams that night... and in the morning, there was no sign at all from Jungkook that any of what I had just witnessed ever happened. There was not so much as a warm blush in the morning... I felt like a fool to have to ask. So as more time went on, the more I thought and the more I believed that my mind had made the whole thing up.

Now that I really think about it, it did feel like a dream... I mean I could see it happening from above me. Not very clearly... but it was blurry... I must've made it up... yes, I must of....