-you are sunshine... literal sunshine, and I crave you... physically crave you... so much so that I can't help but tear up ...-
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It's hard to be best friends with BTS...but its also the best thing in the whole world... It's even harder when y...
Easter holidays were coming up, but I didn't expect to be going back to the boys this time... I really didn't have the money. I had to leave my job again to focus on my studies, meaning, I had barely any funds to get there... maybe just once more.
Today, I was happily working away when I got a call from Taehyung.
"Hey Tae Tae!"
"Hey Y/N! have you heard about Muster?!" I hadn't heard... but I knew where this was going.
"No? what's that?"
"It's going to be a big special fan meeting concert just for ARMYs!" something within me swelled at the mention of a fan meeting, remembering what happened last year. Because I had to leave early after debut, due to the car accident, I missed Bts's first ever fan event. I knew that there was nothing I could do, but I always cried at the thought of not being in that one photo of BTS and ARMY... I should have been there.
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"That sounds really cool Tae!"
"Hell yeah it is! You need to be there" there it is ... now to break his spirits.
"TaeTae I don't know if I can..."
"what do you mean? Is it the work? Because I can help you study!"
"Tae you don't know English" I giggled.
"So? Fine then Namjoon can help"
"It's not the work Tae... It's the cost, I don't really know if I could afford it..." I had to be honest with him, but it broke my heart.
"ah, I see...the guys and I could pay?"
"No!" no way would I allow that to happen. "it's okay Tae, umm I need to do some thinking, maybe I can pull together something, we'll see" I knew I sounded disheartened and so did he.
"Don't worry Y/N, you can come to the next one" something within me snapped... the next one.... The next one... Well was I their best friend or wasn't I?! I needed to be there! To support them! This is a big deal! I have to be there! Determination ran through my mind like hot lava as I spoke again.
"Tae I've got to go, but I'll call you later yeah?"
"yeah okay Y/N-ie, see you later, love you"
"Love you"
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As march rolled around, the boys were sent off onto a well needed holiday to Thailand... well it was technically a holiday, but they still had to do work like photoshoots and filming ect.
I couldn't deny the fact that I was incredibly jealous of their situation. I seemed to find myself under and immense pressure of school work and stress. At first the boys asked if I wanted to join them, but I had to decline, I really couldn't afford it... in money and in time wise.
