Haven♾High | Completed

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[Erysse POV]

I was walking alone. Dinaanan ko yung bench na pinagtatambayan namin apat. The school field, the school parking lot, the court, lobby, corridor, locker room. Every place look so empty ngayon wala na sila tatlo and i was left. The usual day sa school ngayon we are taking exams na sinusukuan na ng marami. Dumadami na rin yung empty desk sa room. What's more is empty? My heart. My heart who can't accept that i lost a friend because i made the biggest mistake in my life. I never got chance to apologize or makabawi. Regrets. Only regrets is with me. One more hurtful na kahit wala sya sa harap namin we all already know what her answer if i apologize. She will give forgiveness. Like she already plan everything for us not to grief too much but still it hurts like hell.

The class ended. I am still sitting on my desk. I was spacing out when i decided to seat on her desk. Pagkatingin ko pa lang sa mga nakasulat. Nadurog na ang puso ko. They keep cursing and even wish her to be dead. I once wish her to be gone too. Hindi ko inaasahan she really going to do that. Nagsisisi na ako. I'm sorry shin keiden- sorry! Isinubsub ko na lang ang ulo ko sa desk at umiyak na lang ng umiyak. It's really painful that i can't even breath. I realize that losing them is more painful than break ups and doesn't liking back by the person i choose over them. If i could just turn back in time and undone my wrong decision. If i could..

Hindi ko inaasahan nakaidlip ako. Nakalagay yung kamay ko sa ilalim ng desk puno ng basura. I pull out my hand when i notice na may notebook. Hinugot ko iyon and notice na sira na ito. Yung itsura ng notebook na nabasa kaya nasira. Some pages are already torn and the rest ay parang burado mga words. Yung dikit-dikit na pahina di ko naman mapaghiwalay kahit dahan-dahanin ko napupunit pa rin. Naisira ko na iyon at sa likuran ko lang nabasa yung maliit na name na nakasulat. Kira. So ito pa lang yung kira's note na minsan nirequest ni zein na mabasa pero hindi mapakita ni keiden dahil sira na. Ibinalik ko na lang sa ilalim iyon at umalis nasa classroom.

Masyado ng gabi i went home straight to my bed and silently cry. When my phone light up ng may message na pumasok. Sa groupchat namin apat.

Yeriel:
"After my hand got burn. Doctor said that it won't work the same again. I tried to use it but my right hand tremble alot. Remember when i got injured from the stage and i need to use my left hand. Unti-unti na ako nasasanay na gamitin iyon. So it made me realize that everything happen for a reason. Now, i'm going to study more arts and be a famous artist. Isa pa, remember keiden was the one who gave me an idea to do arts kasi nakikita nya ako lagi drinodrawing si beomgyu. Nagrequest pa sya kay bangchan na piliin ang art club because of me. Kahit na nainis si chan sa kanya after nun. I should pay her kindness. I gonna show her i'm going to be successful. Hope you learn from your mistake and don't do same thing again. If your going to have a new set of friends.. be kind to them. don't get jealous, check them time to time instead. Cause our angel keiden does it to us since the day we first met her until now... I'm not going to say sorry "i'm not keiden" sa mga harsh words na sinabi ko cause you deserve it a little but hope you take care of yourself. Bye Erysse!"

Nabasa na ng luha ko ang pillow but i continue reading..

Lyzein:
"We think of you before we left. Hindi ka na namin kaya harapin di dahil sinabi ko strangers ka na samin but i might point my finger to you. Sisisihin kita and say harsh words to you- you know me right? Yung ugali ko! because we all hurt naghahanap ako ng sisisihin. Pati nananahimik na kaluluwa ni kira dahil sa notebook nya sinisi ko! Okey ito na naman ako but for keiden sake i learn to hold my emotion dahil wala naman magbabago kung magsisihan tayo. Sa totoo lang nakakadrain lang iyon. The fact that we need to give each other space to breath again. Kinakailangan talaga hindi muna tayo magkita-kita. But i know naging totoo kaibigan ka samin at ganun din kami sayo. Inantay ka rin namin dumating sa funeral hanggan sa libing pero di ka dumating. Keiden is waiting erysse. Don't be harsh to yourself. Hindi matutuwa si keiden. By the way since alam mo na keiden already forgive you. Seungmin taught me that there's a life after mistakes. So it's your role to do the acceptance then after that  you should start up and take a new journey dala-dala yung lesson na natutunan mo. Yeriel is going to be an artist, she now found what she wants to be.. hindi man ako makakabalik sa pag-iiskate cause matagal ko na rin naman hiniling na matigil na ako sa ganun. The accident in the play literally make my wish come true. Pero masaya ako nakapaghuli perform pa ako ice rink then after nun marami na magaganda bagay na nangyari sakin. Class-D already find their purpose in life and i got seungmin and i met my dad again.. i don't want to say this in words so dito na lang sa chat.. kahit di na mababasa ni keiden toh.. aalagaan ko mabuti si dad and learn how to be that motherly figure person so i can marry my man.. forget this, anyway bye!"