Be With Me Then (Then Series #5)

Chapter 2

Chapter 2 

Dream 

I just want my brother's dream came true with my help that is what in my mind when I decided to pursue modeling. I want my brother to be happy for me kahit na alam ko naman na whatever I will do he will always be happy for me. He will be always proud of me. 

Dahil ganun naman siya simula pa lang. He is indeed my only hope in this lifetime. 

"What is your plan on your birthday?" he ask while I am busy watching a make-up video. It's already summer break and I can finally have a break for studying even just for a while even though Dad will make me study again pag nakita niyang wala naman akong ginagawa. 

"I don't know, as if Mom and Dad will remember it." I said bitterly and I saw how he avoided my eyes and I just shrugged because that was the truth anyway. 

Never in my life ata na nauna pang maalala sa'kin nila Mom adnd Dad yung birthday ko. They are always busy. Lagi silang may patients and my sisters are busy to their studies and Kuya is the only person sa bahay na 'to ang laging nauunang makaalala. 

And also wala din naman akong masyadong friends because I don't know how to interact to people that every time someone will come near me I will just excused myself not letting them get close to me. 

I just don't want to make friends to anyone because Dad will think it will be a hindrance to my studies dahil ganun siya kanila Ate and also Kuya. I witness it all that is why I am doing everything that I can para hindi pagdaanan yun. 

"And I know you are busy." I said that is why he look at me and I just smile at him. Alam ko naman na Dad is making him study a lot of things and he is just doing everything para hindi ko mapansin yun. But I did. 

In this house I became observant and learn to be quiet. Because in that way I know what to do in my life. Malalaman ko kung ano ang gagawin ko. 

"But we can spent your birthday," he said at umiling naman agad ako. 

"Just spent your day studying. Baka masapak ka na naman ni Dad." I said and laugh painfully dahil alam kong yun ang ginagawa sa kanya ni Dad pag hindi masagot ni Kuya yung tanong niya about medicine. 

"It's nothing, mahina lang naman sumapak si Dad." he said at umiling na lang ako at hindi na siya pinansin. 

I spent the the two weeks of April inside my room because I am always alone. Ayoko namang sabihin kay Kuya na laging sinasama ni Dad. I don't want to stress him more. I've already read a lot of books na naghalo halo na sila sa utak ko and I also watch a lot of fashion videos and also learn how to walk as a model. 

And I come into thinking of how I should say it to my parents and I'm sure my parents will probably not happy about that and Dad will surely blame my brother in that at ayokong mangyari yun. My brother already protected me for a long time. I need to do everything on my own now. 

I already look for a modeling agency without my brother knowing siguro iniisip niya gagawin ko yung fashion ko sa modeling if I already finish high school but he is wrong I am already starting building my own dream on my own. 

"Dad, can I go out tomorrow. I will just buy some new books." I said when I enter my Dad's study room. I saw my brother talking to my Dad and I just smile at him.  

"That's all? No any funny trip?" he ask but even though I badly want to roll my eyes I can't because he hates it. 

"No, Dad. I will behave." I said and he look convince kaya pinayagan na ako. 

I just really need to go out of this house that is suffocating me. I want to breathe even just for a while. 

My brother enter my room after that and ask me kung gusto ko daw ba na kasama siya and I declined. Dad letting me go is already enough.