Be With Me Then (Then Series #5)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12 

Greeting

I am nervous before opening the DM pero hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako or what because it's a video of Zaira and Raffy greeting me and they said they just used Renzo's phone dahil nahablot lang daw nila phone ni Renzo. 

Hindi ko na pinansin yun and just message Zaira and Raffy to their accounts dahil baka mamaya hindi na sila ang may hawak ng phone ni Renzo mahirap na after that I just sleep because it's another day tomorrow. I don't know kung anong mangyayari sakin sa loob ng ilang araw na kasama ang mga magulang ko at kung ano man ang gusto nilang ipagawa but I will just go with the flow. 

Because that is all I can do right now. Even if I badly want to do what I want to do hindi ko pa din magagawa because my love for my family is greater than my wants. I will choose to be with them even if everything is making me lose myself. 

Mga kaibigan ko na lang ang kinakapitan ko pag feeling ko bibigay na ako and kahit gusto kong kumapit sa pamilya ko sobrang hirap dahil feeling ko sa matalim na bagay ako nakakapit. I love them pero hindi ko kayang kapitan sila dahil pakiramdam ko magulang ko ang nagiging dahilan why I am losing myself. 

"Irene, glad you're here we have to tell you something." Mom said when she saw me walking through them to eat breakfast. Nakatulugan ko na lang kagabi ang pag-iisip ng kung ano ano. 

"Ano po yun?" I ask. What a nice breakfast. 

"Your Dad and I think kung pwedeng ikaw ang maging model ng foundation and also the Hospital tutal yan ang pinili mo why not we use it to our business?" Mom said and even if what she said pains me hindi ko yun pinahalata. 

Parang pinamukha lang nila sakin na ang baba ko at hindi pa sapat lahat ng ginagawa ko. I am doing almost everything but it's still not enough. 

"I will talk to my manager." I said at tumango naman si Mommy dun at nagpatuloy na sa pagkain. 

That is my purpose in this world. I need to always try my best dahil halos lahat hindi pa sapat para sa kanila. Kailan ba naging sapat mga ginagawa ko? Lalo na ngayon na I choose not to do what they want me to do alam kong buong buhay ko I will do everything to be enough for them because I didn't obey them. 

"Did they tell you something?" nagulat ako ng biglang lumapit sakin si Ate Ivory while I am busy giving medicine and she is busy dahil isa siya sa mga doctors. 

"Tell me what? Who?" I ask dahil hindi ko siya naintindihan. Kanina pa ako wala sa sarili ko dahil iniisip ko how I should tell Oli about it lalo na at sinabi niyang ang dami ng matatambak na schedule ko because of my break isabay pa na graduating ako at may binibigay ng project yung mga prof ko. 

"Mom and Dad, did they tell you something you don't want to do?" she ask at mabilis naman akong umiling dun. Hindi naman sa hindi ko gusto it's just that hindi ko alam paano isisingit sa schedule ko yun. 

Lahat naman ng gusto ng mga magulang ko gusto ko man o hindi gawin I will have no choice but do it. 

"As if I can do anything." I said and laugh without looking at her. Ate Ivory is the closest with my parents dahil siya nga ang pinakamatanda and almost everything about what my parents want yun din ang gusto ni Ate. 

Kaya hindi ako makapagsabi sa kanya ng kahit ano because I am scared na baka panigan niya ang parents namin because she will think that our parents know what they were doing to us. 

"You can , Irene. You already do something actually. You follow what makes you happy at kung ano ang gusto mo. And I know this time you can finally do something because you're a brave girl. my love." she said and tap my cheeks and smile at sinabing babalik na siya dahil may mga pasyente pa na kailangan ng check up.