Be With Me Then (Then Series #5)

Chapter 11

Chapter 11 

Envy  

I don't know why Renzo smiling like me like that fascinates me. I never see him smile like that anywhere sa mga pinsan niya o kay Raffy baka oo but to just anyone else I doubt it. And I am also shock that he greeted me in advance, ako lang! He didn't even greet Hannah or Ate Chloe it's only me kaya napapaisip na lang ako doon. 

Hindi naman nahalata nung apat na ang lalim ng iniisip ko dahil nakikisama naman ako tutal dun naman ako magaling. Itago yung totoong nararamdaman ko para hindi na nila ako isipin pa.  I want to be by their side okay na yun. Natapos ang araw na yun and I also said bye to Raffy and Irene dahil after New Year na pagkikita namin pag nakabalik sila. 

And just like my parents want I already talk to Oli at wala din naman siyang magagawa dahil nakiusap na ako and he agreed that is why I am already packing some of my things para umuwi sa bahay. Even I really don't want to go home to that house dahil bukod sa that house will suffocate me, I will also remember my memories with my brother. All of my memories na sobrang saya but it's also painful knowing that I cannot see my brother anymore. 

I remember nung sinabi ni Raffy na galit si Zaira kay Zairon, napaisip na lang ako kung may panahon ba na nagalit ako kay kuya pero wala akong maalala because he always try his best para hindi ako magalit sa kanya. He is making me fond of him and just liking him. 

"Come to the medical mission with us Irene, We will also celebrate Christmas there." Mom said when I arrive at our house and what she said make me stop. 

By the mention of medical mission I suddenly remember something. Yun ang huling ginawa ni kluya before he come to save me. He was in a medical mission and helping other people but he choose to save me and lose his life. 

"Okay," I said and quickly go to my room and when I enter my room doon na bumagsak yung mga luha ko. I feel lifeless. Every time I will go home at these house parang wala akong buhay. I feel lifeless. 

Days passes and I become busy helping my sister for the party sa foundation and after that sa medical mission na ang punta namin. I am sometimes hanging out with Hannah and Ate Chloe after doing all the things I need to do. At condo ko naman ang meeting up place nila and I sometimes sleep there na hindi naman pinapansin nila Mom this past few days dahil hindi din naman nila nalalaman because I am like a wind na dumadaan lang sa kanila. 

Before mag 24 nang bumyahe na kami papuntang medical mission and I have my brothers camera with me dahil yun na lang naman ang magagawa ko doon. And I know how to edit pictures and take a picture because when I gave the camera to my brother he teach me and I also have his laptop since he died ngayon ko na lang bubuksan yung laptop niya even though I really know the password ang hirap lang buksan for me. 

"What a nice way to celebrate Christmas." I said when I enter my room. I just decided to open my phone and talk to my friends and also Oli and Mia. I also post a picture on my IG. 

After fixing my things binuksan ko na yung laptop ni Kuya and when I open it ang background nun is yung Eiffel Tower and when I look at it through nakita kong it's my picture on Eiffel Tower at bata pa ako dito when we go to Paris dahil may seminar sila Mommy doon at sinama nila kaming tatlo. 

At sa picture I can see how amaze I am sa Eiffel Tower and it's a shock that Kuya have this as his background. May nakita akong folder na things to do that is why I open it at nang mabuksan ko yun nakita ko halos lahat ng gusto niyang gawin. All the things that he wants to do with me. Halos lahat ng nasa listahan niya kasama ako. Pati nga daw pag nagkagirlfriend siya ako dapat unang makakaalam. But what stop me is. 

Travel to Paris with Irene and I will be her photographer and I also want to watch her ramp in a runway in Paris. 

"Kuya," I said while my tears are falling nonstop. I know that this is his dream. He dream of going to Paris to do modeling pero dahil alam niya na ako ang tutupad ng pangarap niya he did all this. He dream for me.