Blaze Of Glory | Kylo Ren

Breaking Promises

Ani's P.O.V.

Since I've arrived at Yavin 4 to be trained by Master Skywalker, I have learned more than I ever have in past years. In the years with my parents, we were always running and hiding. They'd teach me what they knew, but it becomes harder to remember as I get older. 

However, since I've been here training with Ben, I've learned a lot about the leadership and battle strategies of the Jedi and Mandalorian. I've practiced many hours on how to use the force to my advantage and use a light saber in combat with Ben. Yet, in the past few years, I feel as if Ben and I haven't learned more of anything. 

It might be because when I practice and train, it's only with him and I know all of his moves. I do hope we are growing even if I don't feel like I am; I know I have to have faith in the force. If I wasn't doing what's right, Master Luke or my grandfather would have spoken to me about it already. 

However, I don't feel Ben is thinking the same way as I do, even with most of our time spent together. The air feels different around Ben when we train now. I don't know how to describe it, but I feel something disturbing in the force surrounding him. 

It's been months since he's mentioned leaving the Jedi temple, but the sense of something off about Ben since that day. We have mostly trained by ourselves, even with Luke being back with his newest Padawan. Master Skywalker has been so focused on the rest of his students he rarely comes to help us. 

Not only that, but they have built bigger housing for the newer students. Leia has left since he's been back, and Han still hasn't come to visit us this year yet. I've mentioned my concerns to Luke about Ben and he's acknowledged it. 

Informing me he'll deal with it, but I haven't seen him do anything about it yet. I've grown nervous over the past few months from the loneliness Ben and I know. Whenever I feel the loneliness, I go to my father's grave and feel his and my grandfather's presence. 

I know it's not enough to settle the feeling in my soul. Ben has to wait around until his parents come back to him. I've tried to get his mind off his parents being gone and the thought of Luke being distracted with the other students, but I know I only make it worse.

I know whenever I try to make him feel better, he only gets worse because he can sense my loneliness of not having a parent figure. He's all I have, though. So I have to make this work because we have nowhere else to go and no one to turn to. 

I feel as if it's my responsibility to at least try to distract him from the lack of his parents in his life right now. Heading to Ben's tent with a plate of fruit, I glance around and watch the younglings chatting with one another around a firepit. All of them have bigger huts and more things for their training than Ben and I ever did at their age.

I have talked little to them since Ben and I have different training sessions than them, but they all seem nice. It's late and Ben's probably about to go to bed, if not already, but I wanted to check on him before he is. I lift his hut's tarp and walk inside to find him lying in bed with his eyes wide open.

He seems to be in deep thought and doesn't notice I've come in yet. Coughing loudly, I smile his way when I catch his attention. His eyes meet mine and he smiles at me in return, but it doesn't reach his eyes. I peek down at the plate of food in my hand before staring back at him shyly and announcing.

"I come with sustenance..."

"Thanks, but I'm not hungry."

"Oh, really." 

I roll my eyes and walk towards his bed with the food, anyway. Scooting his legs over, I make a spot on his bed for me, making him sighs while sitting up in response. I put the food between us and take a piece of the sliced pear I cut up moments ago. Popping it into my mouth, I say with a mouth full.