Blaze Of Glory | Kylo Ren

You Don't Have To Do Everything Alone

Anakia's P.O.V.

Leia is training Finn and Rey. Chewie is helping the resistance. There's a Resistance spy in the first order. Ben has completely turned to the dark side.

Clenching my jaw, I try to keep my mind from splitting in the force. With my eyes closed, I'm tapping into the force and trying to overcome my mental attacks. I get my mental attacks whenever I think of the past or try to search in the surrounding force.

I feel the pain of Ben's loneliness as he works to benefit the First Order. I hear Leia's mourning mind for me, Luke, Han and Ben as she tries to mentor Finn and Rey. Chewie's tired and losing faith in the absence of Han on the Falcon. 

Finn and Rey feel lost in their training from losing me and Luke. My mind twirls the images of them in the force as memories flash between it all. I lose oxygen as I try to control the images flashing in my head.

"You're letting your feelings take up your mind."

My eyes pop open at Ahsoka's voice. Turning my head, I find her walking toward me. I'm in a patch of grass, trying to control my mind. 

Yet, I found it as difficult as I did my first day on this system. Glancing around me, I find Snip still sitting beside me. I believe she's meditating with me, but I can't be sure. 

Ahsoka steps around me to stand in front of me and kneels down. She rests her staff in front of her, along with her saber, before pointing out.

"You must let go of your feelings and see things for what it is."

"How do you let go of feeling you've had for years?" I ask in an honest tone while watching her rest her hands on her lap like me. "How can to pick out what's what?"

"Tell me what you see." Ahsoka hums out and closes her eyes. "Try again."

I keep my eyes on her for a moment, skeptical. My thoughts and what I see in the force feel personal. Plus, I didn't ask her for help in sensing the force, but I feel the need for help. 

I haven't done proper Jedi training in so long that it feels strange to try again. Though I know it's best with someone to coach me; it feels wrong to have someone help if it's not Luke. Closing my eyes again, I know this might be the only way to help me balance my thoughts and the force.

"I see... Leia, she's struggling to help Finn and Rey." I speak up while feeling Leia in the force. Frowning, I dig deeper and comment in a faint voice. "She's trying her best to train them, but I sense her fearing it will end as Ben and I did-"

"Leia is helping Finn and Rey." Ahsoka interrupts me and clarifies what I'm sensing. "She's training them to not end as you and Ben did in your training."

"Isn't that what I said?" I blurt out, confused, and open my eyes. I find her eyes still closed as she answers. "You spoke of her feelings, not just her actions."

"That's what I see though..." I sigh while closing my eyes. "I can always see their emotions."

"You must broaden yourself in the force." Ahsoka explains in a steady, low tone. "Do not look inbound at what you see. The dark side wants you to look closer to see the pain, hate, mourning, and negativity. If you look outward, you see things for what they are and not what could turn into. Try again."

"I see... Chewbacca." 

I think out loud and pause my thoughts. He is exhausted and lonely on the Falcon, but I push my focus outward. Speaking up again, I see what is actually happening in the force. 

"He's... On the Falcon with a mission for the Resistance."

"Good. What else?"

"I see him with Han on the Falcon. They're excited... They're taking me and Ben on a trip to-"