Blaze Of Glory | Kylo Ren

What Have I Done?

Ani' P.O.V.

"Kylo... May I ask you something?"

I blurt out in the silence, Kylo turns his head and watches me for a second in alarm from my soft tone. I never ask him if I can ask a question, I just ask him, but this question in mind differs from the rest I've asked him; he senses it, making his muscles tighten. 

He's been sitting at his desk looking over a map for an hour now. I've been on the love seat throwing Snips her toys across the room for her to catch. His helmet rests on the corner of his desk; he's still in his uniform from leaving the room today. 

I'm wearing a long grey dress with pearl strings on each shoulder, as straps to hold it up. The dress has no back with more pearls hanging down in a u shape that ends just above my butt. Earlier, Snips was trying to grab the back pearls. It almost made me fall back.

My blonde hair is in one long braid down my back, I have a string of pearls entwined with my hair. I've been sitting on the loveseat, a little uncomfortable from the pearls, thinking about how to ask him about this particle question. Since the night he came back furious, I've been seeing his mind dwell on Luke, our old Master. 

Whenever he does, he has the same aura as that one night. He's not once mentioned his name this entire time, but I can feel his mind on Luke in an unsettling way. He's trying to block my mind from seeing it, but I've mastered the forces mentally from being locked away for years and I'm very good at sneaking my way into people's mind without them knowing. 

I'm unable though to see what his mind pictures when thinking about Luke though, only his feelings toward him. It's led me to understand why he was so distraught coming back that one night.

"What is it, Angel?"

 Kylo snaps, a little impatient for my question. Snips drops her toy when hearing his tone and stares at him like one of her toys. I look to my hands in my lap, knowing he won't better his mood now that I said what I said, and he speaks up again, more of a command. 

"Spit it out, Ani."

"What... What happened between you and Luke?"

I whisper out and it's only then that I realize it's the first time I spoke his name out loud in years. His name makes flashes of old loved memories pass through my mind before looking up at Kylo. He lets out a long sigh, as if he knew I would ask one of these days. 

He looks back to his desk, staring hard as if he's now trying to find the best words to answer without losing his temper. I notice Snips now pacing in alarm as the atmosphere changing around her. I feel crummy for bringing it up. 

We've been doing so well since I got Snips, but I find his mind lingering on Luke and I can't help myself but know the truth. I never asked him what had happened between them or what's become of Luke. I need to know, though. 

I feel his presence around me when Kylo thinks of him in an unpleasant light. Standing up suddenly, Kylo walks over to where I'm reclined on the loveseat. 

He lifts where my feet are at and sits in their place before resting my feet onto his lap. Snips growls, but when Kylo glares her way, she grabs her toy and runs under the bed.

"Luke tried to kill me."

Staring me straight in the eyes, with no doubt Kylo answers, simple as he can. My breath catches in terror and I stand up from the loveseat. Walking away from him, I try to imagine Luke doing such a thing to his nephew. 

My head shakes without realizing. I clench my face at the thought of our Master willing to do something like that to him. My eyes are to the ground imagining what that last month was like on Yavin 4.