Blaze Of Glory | Kylo Ren

Missing You

Kylo Ren's P.O.V.

Storming out of my ship, my frustration leaves my body with the presences of Anakia. Her force surrounds me the moment I step onto base, as if she's waiting for me. I didn't get the part of the map I needed, but I have the pilot who know's where it's at, which leaves my temper at bay. 

I watch the prisoner being guided to the interrogation cell; I'll deal with him later, but for now, I'm going straight to my room. It's been days since I've seen Anakia and I feel a pull to see her, to be near her. Walking toward the elevator, I sense her presences closer than it should be because I know she should be in my room. 

Glancing up at the long window that should be on my bedroom wall, I feel her force surrounding it like a barrier. Smiling in my mask, I know she's watching me from the window; of course she'd be there waiting for my return. Turning back to the elevator, I get in and wait for it to reach for the level my room's on. 

I feel my patients run thin from just waiting to get on the right story level. I've missed her on my mission, but I haven't been able to dwell on it. Until now, I have had my priorities in order. 

I know my responsibilities to the First Order, but I have my personal responsibility and desire for Anakia, which I find needs more attention at the moment of arriving. Since bringing her to my room, I haven't spent a day without seeing her and I'm feeling it effecting me now. I know it's not right for me to have this attachment to her, but she's the one exception I'm allowed to have. 

It's the only exception Snoke and I agreed on when joining him. Once the elevator opens on my level, I stride out as if I'm still on a mission. I can feel Anakia's force completely in the hall. 

It's somehow grown since I've left, and it has me wandering why. It might be Snip's force in the mix, but I feel as if it's not the reason, since the cat doesn't have twice the strength Ani has with the force. I'm passing through groups of troopers as I get closer to my door. 

They move out of my way easily, giving me the middle of the hall to walk on. Reaching my door, I use the force to open it while taking off my helmet. As soon as I step past the doorway, I feel arms wrap around my neck and a warm body against me. 

As the door closes behind me and my arms wrap around Anakia's waist, I drop my helmet to the side. I press my head into the crook of her neck and squeeze her tightly in my arms. I feel rejoiced by how affectionally she's welcoming me back. 

She's never reacted this way when I've returned to my room. Smiling into her neck, I kiss it lightly and lift her off her feet to hold her in our embrace. I feel her sighing into my neck and cling onto my back as her feet dangle in the air. 

Her soft sounds only make me want to bring her closer, but I don't think it's possible without stripping our clothes off. Which I wouldn't mind doing just to be closer to her. Dropping her back to the ground so she can stand on her feet, I pull away somewhat to look at her. 

My hands are still around her waist when I lift my head to meet her gaze, but the moment my eyes see her face, my content expression drops immediately.

"I've missed you... I think Snips even missed you as well."

Anakia gleams up at me, but I'm not looking at her smile or eyes. I'm staring at her bruised face. She has two marks on either side of her face, one's swollen and red, the other is purple and green with scrapes. 

My anger that had just died from her presence consumes me once again at the sight. A hand on her waist goes to grab her jaw; she peers down to my chest when realizing I'm inspecting the marks. 

Her expression appears as if she knew I was eventually going to do so. Looking back into her eyes, I roar in a stunned tone, all the affection gone from my body.