Blaze Of Glory | Kylo Ren

Here If You Need Me

Anakia's P.O.V.

Clipping my saber to my hip, I smooth out my uniform and put on my robe. It's exactly the same as my red and black one, but grey. It's a thick strap tank top tuck into my pants with boots up to my knees. 

The boots' heels are knife sharp like the others. I have grey matching gloves that end at my wrists and a grey robe. Walking out of my old home, I find Ben putting bags on his ship. 

He comes out empty-handed and finds me walking toward him and our ships. Snip runs to my side and follows me to meet him by our ships.

"I'll let the First Order you'll return, so you shouldn't have a problem with them."

I nod slowly while coming in front of him. We stare at one another emotionlessly, knowing what we're about to do. 

This will be the first time we're separating with faith that we'll find each other and still have the same feelings as we do now. Recalling Snoke's words, I let out a breath and speak up with vulnerability. 

"Don't fall out of love with me. Okay?"

"I could never, Angel."

Ben smirks while grabbing my hip and pulling me into a hug. Sighing in his arms while wrap my arms around his shoulders and rest my head on his chest. He's still in his old clothes, but I assume he'll change the moment he reaches the First Order. 

Lifting my head to catch his gaze, I feel his hand go to the back of my head. He brings his lips down onto my lips and tightens his hold on my waist. I grip his shirt and deepen the kiss as if this is our last. 

When we pull away, our foreheads rest on one another as we catch our breath. Our hands loosen as we step back from one another. Keeping our eyes connected, we walk to our own ships. 

Snip follows behind me until I stop at the foot of the ramp. She then runs in as if she's ready for our next adventure. Standing with one foot on the ramp, I stare at Ben and can't help but call out to him in misery.

"I love you."

"And I love you."

Ben nods at me intensely, like we're about to go to war. I nod back at him and let out a breath I didn't notice I was holding. Turning back and peering at the field I once called home, I take once last look at it. 

Seeing the tall grass, my hut, our fathers' graves in the distance; I sense a change in the wind. I can picture younglings running in the fields, Leia talking to C-3PO, Luke and with R2-D2 walking into the temple. Imagining the Falcon flying into the sky, I turn back around to take one more look at Ben. 

He's still staring at me and that's when I realize he's never cared about this place. He's never looked around this place and admired it like I would. Ben's only ever admire me at this place. I've always been his home, not this planet.

Facing my ship, I force myself inside and ignore all that my heart's saying about this place and Ben. I find Snips patiently sitting in the passenger seat, waiting for me. Sighing with a smile, I move to sit in the Captain's seat. 

Trying to forget what I'm leaving, I start up the ship like Han's shown me in the past and close the ramp. It's only when I flip a few switches that a memory invades my mind.

"You always want to press this and turn that before taking off."

"Why?"

"Don't worry about why, kid. Just don't forget to do it." Han smirks while sending me a look and turning a knob. "Soon you'll be flying for a mission and you'll be more concerned with the mission than the ship... There's nothing wrong with that, but just don't forget to do it. It'll save your ass in the long run."