Vow of the Dawn (La Carlota #2)

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"Don't tell me you'll still go back to him?"

I pressed my lips together as I wait for Cola's response, she's crying on my shoulders while we're sitting on a bench that's located on a hidden part of the school, Nicolai and her broke up that's why she's crying her heart out.. They've been together for months so I understand her feelings.

"Hindi ko kasi maintindihan, Ophe, bakit ang bilis para sa k-kaniya," mahina niyang tugon, I brought my handkerchief out and gave it to her, iyak siya nang iyak to the point na naubos na niya ang isang balot ng tissue na binigay ko sa kaniya.

"Hush.. " I whispered and caressed her head, I don't know what to say nor do! I've never been in love nor heartbroken before so all of this are new to me! I don't even know if there would be a point in my life where I'd fall deeply in love and cry, I never cried.

"H-hindi niya ba ako minahal?" She said in between her sobs, nanatili akong tahimik dahil hindi ko naman alam ang naging relasyon nila ng boyfriend niya and I have no plans on sticking my nose that deep, kung ano lang ang gusto niyang sabihin sa akin. "Kasi.. Kasi ako minahal ko s-siya," she weakly uttered and her shoulders kept on shaking.

We're teenagers.. Fifteen and sixteen year olds to be exact.. And her saying that she's in love is bewildering to my ears. Paano ka magmamahal sa ganito ka batang edad? I don't want to invalidate her feelings.. Baka kasi hindi ko pa lang nararanasan kaya hindi ko maintindihan.

Hindi ko lang kasi nakikita ang sarili.. I can't see myself loving someone at this young age, I don't even know what responsibilities I'm willing to take but, I'm sure I don't like to take anything anytime soon.

"Why don't you talk it out?" Tangi kong nasabi.

"He won't!" Her cries got louder which made me wince a bit.

"Then don't chase him," I murmured. "If he doesn't want to talk to you then don't, let it all go.. Huwag mong habulin, and in fact.. 'Di ba you're hunching that he's already courting Vi? E'di from there nga you should know na, na he's not the one, Cola," I reminded her but she just kept on shaking her head.

See.. This is why love at a very young age is so dangerous.. Pakiramdam natin katapusan na ng mundo kung mawawala sila sa atin.. But it's not.. Love is in-depth, mysterious, and works wonders pero dapat hindi nito pinaparamdam sa'tin 'yong ganitong sakit.. At this age our lives should revolve around building our dreams and passion.. Building ourselves.. Building who we really are and not chasing around love that's questionable if it's even genuine or not.

"Water, Coleen," sabay abot ng tubig ni Lucius kay Cola, he stood there and leaned on the wall, hands on his pockets and observing our surroundings he didn't say anything more.

"T-thank you," patuloy lang sa paghikbi si Cola habang umiinom ng tubig at hinahabol ang hininga, namamaga rin ang mga mata kaka-iyak.

"That's not love," matapang na sabi ni Light which made me glare at him with so much irritation, pero hindi niya ako pinansin, akmang magsasalita pa ako pero bigla nalang nagsalita si Cola gamit ang ipit niyang boses, I know she's about to burst into tears any moment from now.

"How can y-you say that?"

"Because love shouldn't hurt that much.. Hindi dapat tayo kinukunsumo ng pagmamahal," sigurado niyang sabi at umiling, tumalikod na at umalis.

I don't know but I couldn't agree more to his words, hindi naman kasi dapat ganito kasakit ang pagmamahal.. Hindi naman siguro dapat tayo sinasaktan at inuubos nang ganito ng pagmamahal, o baka hindi palang namin nararanasan magmahal ni Light.. I don't know.