Family Troubles || Redlyn

It's Not Going to Work

Ashlyn's POV

"I love you too." I looked at Big Red. "I really hope we can make it work."

"No use worrying. It'll happen or it won't. I'm hoping for the latter."

"Me too."

"Then it'll be fine." He smiled a little. I stayed there for a few hours, until going home to finish some homework. I felt both worse and better. It really felt like I was moving now. But I wasn't as scared of that anymore.

After school the next day, I managed to find all my friends. We all walked outside, myself behind everyone else, besides Big Red, who was next to me.

"It'll be fine." He whispered in my ear. I nodded. We all sat around a picnic table that was near the school.

"What's going on?" Seb asked.

"I—" I glanced over at Big Red. "I'm moving. To Nevada. With my dad, on Wednesday."

"Oh." Came from a few of them.

"Yeah." I nodded. The rest of the time there was blurry. Lots of hugs, crying, and questions.

Around 7 p.m., as I was beginning to pack. I made it through a few minutes before sitting down on my bed, pulling my knees up and burying my face in them. I started crying. Minutes later, there was a knock on my bedroom door.

"Who is it? Can it wait?"

"Big Red."

"Oh, uh..." I wiped all the tears off my face and stood up, opening the door for him. "Come on in." Big Red walked in and I closed the door. I looked around at the mess I had made whilst trying to pack and sighed.

"Getting ready to leave?" Big Red asked me at a whisper, sitting on my bed. I sat next to him and nodded. "Right." I saw a few tears in his eyes.

"It's not gonna work."

"What?" He turned to me.

"We're not gonna be able to make this work." I restated.

"But I love you, and you love me."

"But we'll be hours apart! It's not gonna work."

"I... fine. You want to break up, then?" He asked.

"I—" I closed my eyes, trying to keep myself together. I opened them. "Well... I- I mean..."

"Do you want to break up?" He repeated.

"I just... I don't think it'll work out... and... yes?"

"...Fine." He got up to leave.

"But I do love you." I whispered.

"I love you too, Ashlyn." Big Red left.

I started crying again, harder this time. It had been my choice, but obviously a didn't want to. A part of me wanted to run after Big Red and take everything back. But I couldn't. Even if I did... he'd probably be mad.