why won't you love me? [M.G.C]

24

!!TW: mention of self harm!!

Michael Clifford

It was now January 2nd, none of us talked about what happened the day before after it happened.

I was laying in my bed at my parents house staring at the ceiling. We go back to Los Angeles in 2 days. I wonder if Crystal moved out already..

The door suddenly opened and Quinn walked in. 'how are you feeling? Your parents let me in..' she said as she walked over to me. I looked over at her and shrugged.

'is something bothering you, talk to me' she instantly said as she noticed i shrugged.

'quinn i'm fine' I groaned out and sat up. I brushed my fingers through my hair. She sat down next to me and looked at my arms.

'did you change your bandages yet?' she asked as she kept looking at my arms. I shook my head, thankfully my parents haven't noticed anything. I've been wearing a long sleeve shirt all yesterday and today, the same shirt actually.

'cmon, let's go change them' she insisted and grabbed my hand softly. I knocked the covers off of my legs and got up. We both headed into the bathroom as she grabbed the first aid kit.

I looked at my arms in the mirror as she opened it up. 'so you guys are planning the album still right?' she asked me as she looked at the mirror, as we both locked eyes.

'uh, yeah we are, CALM remember' i said as i continued to look back at my arms. She grabbed my hand softly and softly rolled up the sleeves and unwrapped the bandages.

I closed my eyes not wanting to see the dried up blood. After a few minutes of her replacing the bandages and helping with the cuts, she finished.

She put the kit back under the sink and we looked at each other. She tucked her hair behind her ear snd looked away.

'so, when are you guys going back? I haven't asked Luke yet..' she questioned as she walked back into my room.

'we are leaving on the 4th at 7 in the morning' i yawned and sat on the edge of my bed.

I heard a softly 'oh' from her.

'when are you leaving to go back to school?' i asked as I laid back against the bed pushing my hair out of my face.

'the 5th, and Ashley and I don't start school again till the 8th, so we have a few more days of free time' she said as she sat down in my old gaming chair.

'that's cool' i mumbled and looked around.

'get out my chair! i wanna play my game Quinn' i chuckled and went to her.

'put I wanna play, cmon michael pleaaaaase' she whined and gave me her puppy dog eyes look. I rolled my eyes.

'nope get up' i said as i tried to give her the most serious look i could do. But, it didn't end well, we both bursted into laughter.

'no but seriously get up' i laughed and tried to do it again, but it failed miserably.

She finally got up and I sat down. I turned on my computer and waited for it to load. Quinn rolled her eyes and looked at me.

'don't give me attitude' i chuckled and got everything ready. She again rolled her eyes and sat down next to me.

'what are you going to play?' she asked and leaned her head against my shoulder.

'2048' i chuckled and went onto the website snd just clicked random buttons.

'this is boring' she told me and threw her head back. I laughed again at her and looked towards her.

'Michael? Michael!' she talked a little louder. I suddenly snapped back into reality. 'woah M, you feeling okay?'

I nodded quickly. 'yeah yeah, sorry I just zoned out' She was still sitting in my chair as she started to spin in it somewhat bored.

'Do you and Ashley have any plans before you guys leave?' i wondered and picked up a random figure on my nightstand and analyzed it.

'We kinda planned on going to the beach, watch the sunset and have a picnic and stuff" she said as she continued to spin.

'Are you guys still gonna do it?' i asked and put the small figure down. She replied with a soft 'yeah' and still, was spinning.

'Quinn you are gonna get yourself sick by spinning so much' i told her as i went to the chair. Soon as she was in front of me giggling, i quickly grabbed the arms of the chairs and forced her to stop.

She looked up at me and we bursted out laughing. I grabbed her hand softly and helped her up. 'everything's spinning' she laughed and leaned into me as she wrapped her arms around me.

I froze a bit and slowed held her waist so she was steady. 'you good?' i asked. She looked up at me and nodded.

'yeah, yeah i'm better' she chuckled and broke away from our little 'hug'. She looks at the time and sighs. 'imma go back home okay, call me if you need me'

'okay..' i said and sat down in my chair. She grabbed her stuff and walked out and shut the door. Soon as i heard the downstairs door shut i threw my head back.

I wanted to go back home but i didn't. I want to have fun on my last 2 days, well one. I don't want to sit here, change bandages, and worry about shit.

Where could we go though? Where could I go?

I instantly got up and grabbed my nearby bag and grabbed a few stuff i needed. I grabbed my phone and other things and slid on my shoes.

I rushed downstairs and out the door saying a quick 'goodbye i'll be back' to my mom. I grabbed my keys out of my pocket and rushed in the car.

I took a quick drive to the beach and parked at a spot. I quickly texted the boys.

Michael: i have a question, since it's the last 2 days of us being here. We've always wanted to do something totally stupid. I have an idea, meet me at the beach

I waited a few minutes until i got a response.

Luke: i'm confused but i'm in
Ashton: so am i
Calum: i'm on the way

I sat in my car waiting about 30 minutes for the boys to get here. I saw one car pull up with everyone in it, and Quinn. Great, i really don't want her to see this.

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Hey guys! Sorry it took forever ive been sidetracked and didn't wanna write a whole lot but anyways here's chapter 24, hope you liked it.  <3