Last A Lifetime (Louisiana Series #1)

Kabanata 39

39 - Fighter

I want to live.

I had all the chance to surrender and give up. Life threw different problems at me and it made me realize that maybe losing my battle is fine and reasonable. My mother died before I met her. My father left me at a young age. I was sick and I couldn't do much to live my life. I was suffering and in pain. I was chained into a body that made me pale and weak. I had difficulties and sorrows. And I had all the chance to surrender and give up.

I didn't. I want to live. I want to be alive. And no matter how much it takes to finally free myself from everything, I'd do it. The life I am dreaming is meant to do great things. I can't give it up. I can't back down, I can't run. I'd fight for it. I'd fight until the last drop of strength I have. And I will never let the demons have their control over me. I am not theirs, and I will never be.

Facing challenges in my life made me tougher. I needed to become weak to be stronger. I needed to cry so I can smile again. I needed to fall down to get back up again. I needed to feel scared to be braver. And in this last fight, I am sure I won.

"Agatha?"

Nanatili ang pagtitig ko sa kisame. There was lights. Bright lights that's blinding me. I couldn't feel anything but I hear sounds. Malakas iyon at sunod-sunod. My throat feels dry and in pain. Ni hindi ako makapagsalita. Hindi ko naiintindihan ang nangyayari.

"Call the doctor!" Someone shouted. "Agatha?"

Unti-unting naging normal ang mga tunog na naririnig ko. It wasn't loud anymore. Beeping sounds enveloped my room as a hand touch my arm. Hindi pa rin ako makagalaw at hindi ko alam kung sino ang humawak sa akin.

"H-hey.."

The voice rasps. Pinilit kong igalaw ang mga mata ko upang tignan iyon. It was a man. My vision was blurry but I am sure he is a man. Hindi ko malaman kung sino siya.

I immediately heard the door opened. Sunod-sunod ang mga yabag na narinig ko. The man slowly turned away from me and he was replaced by another. A girl was checking a machine as the other one striked light into my eyes. Nahigit ko ang hininga ko nang tuluyang bumalik sa dati ang paningin ko.

A lone tear fell down when my memories came crashing down on me. What am I doing here? Am I still on the operation? Tapos na ba sila? Are we starting?

My lips parted when I saw my doctor smiled. Kalmado niyang ibinalik ang stethoscope sa pagkakasabit sa leeg at tumango sa kaniyang kasama. Muling bumagsak ang luha ko nang mapagtantong gising ako. I woke up. I woke up alive.

I inhaled and looked around gently using my eyes. Magkahalong sakit at saya ang naramdaman ko nang makita ko sina lola at Carla sa labas ng kuwarto. They were staring at me through the glass window. Umiiyak si lola samantalang pinakakalma siya ni Carla. My eyes roamed around again to find Spencer. Malamang ay siya iyong lalaki rito kanina ngunit nawala na siya ngayon.

The doctor was saying something I couldn't understand. Kahit gustuhin kong gumalaw ay hindi ko magawa. I have my IV and nasal cannula with me. Ang iilang mga nakakabit na makina sa akin ay lalong dumami kaysa noon. I sighed and closed my eyes again.

I woke up. I was able to keep my promise to stay alive. I woke up alive. I am finally living without sickness. I am free.

My tears continued falling from my eyes. Kahit nahihirapan ako ay hinayaan ko ang sarili kong ngumiti. Naging malinaw ang usapan ng mga doktor tungkol sa response ng katawan ko sa operasyon at mga gamot. They said that I am doing great. I wanted to stand up and hug my family but I couldn't do it. Sa ngayon ay pagpapahinga ang kailangan ko.