Love Me Right

Infatuation Or Love?

Umji's POV

I smiled when I saw Sinb scolded the three students who just dropped their trash at the campus. It's cute to see that the old badass queenbee is now a peace officer and a disciplinarian inside the school. I feel proud as I saw her improvement almost everyday. She's still childish and annoying but at least, she's no longer playing her stupid bullying games. I'm happy that she finally learned her own lessons.

I am on the second floor of one of the school buildings looking down the campus. I can't stop smiling as I stare on Sinb's pretty face.

"You look so in love with her, Umji."

I was shocked when I heard someone talk. I looked beside me and saw Yuju unnie standing beside me with a smile on her face as she stares on me. I cleared my throat and looked away from her.

"What are you saying, Yuju unnie?" I said then puffed my cheeks cutely to hide my embarrassment.

"Stop lying, Umji. I know you really love Sinb but just feeling afraid to love her because of all her stupid acts before." Yuju unnie said. I sighed cause Yuju unnie is right.

I really want to be Sinb's girlfriend but I'm afraid to give my whole heart to her. I'm afraid thinking that maybe, one day, she will hurt me again.

What if she's just attracted to me and doesn't really love me?

Infatuation is very different from love and I'm afraid to think that Sinb's feelings for me is only infatuation and not really love.

"Stop feeling afraid, Umji. If you will keep on having second thoughts for accepting Sinb's love to you, it was better to be honest to her. Just tell her that you cannot love her the way that she expects from you." I didn't respond to Yuju unnie's words and just looked back at Sinb on the ground.

I saw Dahyun came and hold one of Sinb's hand. I felt a pain in my heart as I watched Sinb walking away while holding hands with Dahyun. They are laughing and they look so sweet as they walked away.

"Are you feeling jealous, Umji?" I heard Yuju unnie asked but I didn't look at her cause I'm still watching Sinb and Dahyun walking away.

"They are just friends, Yuju unnie." I said cause that's the truth. I don't know why I felt a painful feeling inside my heart now.

"Yes but if you won't assure Sinb that you really love her and will just let her wait for your love, don't blame her if one day, she will get tired waiting for you and just find someone else." Yuju unnie's words gave another pain in my heart. I looked at her and saw her looking seriously at me.

There's a possibility that Sinb will really might fall out of love to me if I will just keep on hiding my true feelings for her. I'm afraid that it will happen one day.

"Should I...finally accept her love for me now?" I looked at Yuju unnie as I asked her that question. I can't understand why that question is hard for me to answer on my own.

"It's up to you, Umji. You know that life is full of chances and surprises so we should not take for granted everything and everyone that became part of our life. I just don't want you to regret losing her if one day, she fell out of love from you. You'll never miss the water until it's gone, Umji." Yuju unnie said making me smiled bitterly. She's really a mature and a smart woman, I adore her for that.

Yuju unnie patted my back and smiled before walking away leaving me standing alone and looking down. She's right in everything she said. Sinb is doing her best for me while I keep on hiding my true feelings for her.

I know I've been too much and I felt guilty whenever I saw her feeling sad as I keep on rejecting her love for me. I am just afraid to give my whole heart to her and have broken heart if one day she will realized that what she feels for me is just infatuation and not really love.

But my heart can't take it if one day, she will fell out of love from me and just leave me all alone.

"I love you, Hwang Sinb."

End of Umji's POV

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Author's Note: Infatuation vs Love. Well, Umji has the right to feel confused about it since she's innocent and this is the first time she experienced love in this story. Thanks for reading.