FORBIDDEN LOVE

Waiting is so tiresome

After my promise not to call Jo, I spent my evening with Tracy. But my thoughts were far from our conversation. Sometimes, she was annoying. I kept my phone next to me and all the time looked through its screen, waiting for any messages from Josephine. I wanna see her sms to inform me that she was coming home. Then, I could be calm and listen to Tracy with more interest. Our parents, first Kim and then Hanna checked us in my room, asked something and closed the door with bright smile on their faces. What did it mean? 

Tracy was gonna sleep and she asked me a strange question for the first meeting: "Can I sleep with you?" - my eyes became wider from great surprise and I was about to ask her - What? What was she talking about? But she corrected swiftly; "I mean, in your room?"

I cleared my throat and said: "But I have only one bed!"

She looked at me playfully and added: "I see, but we can be in one bed, you know like brother and sister. I think, you and Josephine do it from time to time. Just I'm a little bit scared to sleep alone in unfamiliar house."

"But I'm so bad dreamer, I spin around all the time. I will bother you to sleep. Tomorrow you are feeling badder, because of lack of sleep."

"Never mind! Let's just try. If it is, next night, I will sleep in Jo's room, if she allows me."

"You can ask her now."

"No, she isn't at home. We don't know each other like we do, pleeeease."

"Ok, then." - Damn! Why did I let her do it in my room? Jo will be angry with me if she knows Tracy in my bed. 

When my mum came to my room and offered to lead Tracy into her temporary room, we told her about our plan for this night. I hoped my mum would say "no". But she only shrugged her shoulders and wished good night. Her last phrase before leaving my room was "Be careful". Again, what did it mean? 

We were in one bed. I didn't feel anything. I was keeping to think about my Jo. I wanna Jo would be on Tracy's place. I imagined how Jo smells, Tracy's smell didn't excite me. I didn't notice how these thoughts dragged me in dreams. 

"Jayden, wake up! Jayden! Wake up!" - somebody was shaking my body and this voice dragged me out of my unforgettable dreams. I opened my eyes, I was so frightened that it was Jo and she saw me in one bed with Tracy. But, thanks God, it was Tracy.

"What's up, Tracy?"

"You had a dream, repeated only one name all the time, I couldn't sleep, sorry."

"What name?"

"Josephine. Who is Josephine?"

"Obviously, my sister, no? Remember?"

"Yeah, if it is your sister, it is strange, because you were moaning like you have secret fancy to her. According to your movements on the bed, it was so romantic and sexual."

I was afraid that Tracy could learn my secret. And I hurried to answer to her: "Oh no, I remember now, it was about my friend. She is Josephine too."

"I think, you call Jo only your sister."

This prolonged dialogue irritated me.

"Tracy, let's sleep. It was just a dream. That's it! You can see a bear in you dream, everything."

"Ok, don't be angry. Calm down. Sorry me. Really, let's try to sleep again."

We turned the lights off. It was easy to say "let's try to sleep".

Soon, I heard steady breathing of Tracy. It was 3 o'clock. I wonder where Jo was. I decided to check her room and put a present for her, as well. When I was in her room with my gift box, I heard the noise downstairs. I hurried into my room. My heart was beating so loud, I was afraid Tracy could hear it and again wake up. But, fortunately, it wasn't happened. I went to my bed again. Jo was in my head. I closed my eyes and saw her happy face reading my letters, I hoped my small note was pleasure for her. 

After a while, I went to Jo's room. She was already sleeping. I came to her bed, I put my body next to her body. My arm touched her arm. I kissed her nose. She was mine, I knew it. Nobody could take my Josephine. I wanna come back to my room, but I fell asleep.