FORBIDDEN LOVE

Grandpa

The night was difficult for us. Charley was about to die, he all the time snored, coughed, wheezed. Kimberly was sitting near his bed and holding his weak hand. He tried to cletch his fist, but it was hard for him. The desease was killing him. Jayden was going around the room, biting his fingers and his forehead was wincing because of mixed thoughts. I was drinking tea and thinking about the life of my parents. They were really brave guys. Instead of people's opinions, they could be together till the end. I was happy that Jayden and me could do the same, although, to tell the truth, sometimes it could be complicated living in one house, sleeping in one bed and being brothers. There were days, when I considered that the life was cruel, the world was a piece of shit, my parents were cursed. But if you change your attitude to many things in life, you can feel a bit happiness. Yes, we don't have children, but me and Jayden are happy together. 

In the morning, I opened my eyes and saw big tattoed hand. I smiled because it meant that I was at home with my Jayden. He was sleeping sweety, it seemed nobody could wake him up. But..... Kim came into our room, she was speechless, her face was pale, she was skinny and so old. Her quiet voice whispered: "He's gone! He's gone forever!"

I stood up, woke Jayden up. We ran into Charley's room and saw unknown, absolutely unfamiliar person in the bed. His face changed totally, and his dead body didn't belong to him any more. Kim was like a mummy, she didn't move, she didn't cry, she stood still with wide-opened eyes. Her tears rolled slowly and nose became more and more red. 

At the cemetery and at the funeral procession there were not many people. Charley didn't have relatives and friends after his strange choice to get married with own sister. There were only neighbours and some colleagues. AND there was a man who we had never seen before. He was like Jayden, but without tattoos. He was old copy of Jayden. When people went their homes. He came to us and started to speak: "Kimberly, I am so sorry. If you don't mind, I would like to speak with your children."

I didn't expect from myself, but I behaved like a little girl. I began to grab her elbow of black dress and whispered wondering who he was. Kim just shrugged her shoulders and went away crying as quiet as she could. 

"I'm Robert Dowson. I knew your father and your mother. I wanna invite you to my house drinking tea or coffee."

"No, thanks, Mister....How did you say? Mister Dowson." - Jayden was in mood not to talk to anybody. 

"Yes, please." - I said.

"You're Josephine! Right?" - Robert was shy.

"Yes, I think we want to know the truth about our real family and roots. You and Jayden are like twins but with different ages." - I shook his hand and we followed for Robert. Jayden was behind my shoulder and trying to reasure me not to go there, but I had already decided to find out this secret till the end. I supposed that I could relieve my soul after this bitter truth. 

We came to his house. It was old house with dark walls and many pictures. If Jayden was like mister Robert, a girl from the pictures was like me. Damn! What the hell is going on? Mister Robert Dowson offered to sit in armchairs and brought the black tea with candies. He looked at me all the time. I didn't know why?

"So", he started "I knew about Jayden's existance, but YOU", he pointed to my side, "I had no any ideas".

"Who are you?" - Jayden's agrression was getting strong. 

"I'm your grandfather. You see these and those pictures. It's your real mum, Georgia."

"But I was adopted from the baby shelter." - Jayden was looking around. 

"Yes, my daughter was scared like little kitten after your birth, I didn't support her, now I regret about it. She brought you to the orphanage house. Charley and Georgia were lovers. She loved your father so much, more than me, her own father. She was my only child and I hoped that she would be the best person in the world, in my world, but the drugs which your father showed, killed her forever. Charley could get rid of it because of Kim, but Georgia didn't have any motivations to give up." - He stopped and his eyes were staring at his cup of tea. 

"After Jayden was born, I didn't comunicate with her, we lost any connection, but I knew about my grandson and wanna find you, but I couldn't. Three years later, I knew that you were living with Charley and I was happy."

"Don't you know about me?" - I was surprised. 

"No, I saw Georgia only her death. I didn't know that she gave birth twice. I saw you in magazines and TV, about your car racing. You looked like my daughter. I was trying to find out any information about you, and wrote to Charley about it and he convinced me that you were Georgia's daughter. I was shocked."

"Why didn't you appear earlier?" - I asked him with worries. 

"When long time passed by, a person doesn't know how start to speak. You have your life and I cannot insert my life into yours. You just don't know HOW."

We were talking till the night. I was happy, that there is no secret in my life. Coming out of Robert's house, I felt the enrgy in my muscles and I wanna ride a car again.