FORBIDDEN LOVE

Gabriel is strange

Gabriel was kind for me. He let me leave him saying: "Josephine, my darling! I wanna you be happy. I know that only he can make you happy. I insist on living with him together, only you and Jayden. Don't look back! Never! Don't regret! I know what the love is. I love you so much, I love you forever. Go and deal with your life."  - he hugged me, kissed my forehead and hands and added: "Take care, I beg you."

I cried flying in the plane. My body was shaking from hysterical tears. I felt depressed. I was suffering for one month. Then, I decided to write to him: "Gab, hello. I know that you will feel bad after reading my messages, but I can't leave you so. I need our communication."

He didn't answer to me during two days, I was checking my phone every minute. When my phone showed me name of Gab, I was ready to jump. He wrote: " Dear, Jo. My darling! I hope you are ok. If you need to get divorced, I will give it to you with joy. I consider your Jay isn't so jealous like me."

What!? Divorce? Gab is jealous? I didn't think about divorced papers. And I can say that I hadn't noticed Gab was jealous. Poor him. He hid his emotions all the time. I answered: "Divorce? Ok, I promise I will think about it. If you are not hurry with it, I will be happy not to do it right now. If you don't mind, of course."

He was printing, then he deleting and I was waiting. Next day he informed me that he agreed and accepted my offer, not to hurry. It was so hard for me to live between two men who I loved with all my heart, sincerely. 

Jayden bought my dream house, we had routine life after furnishing the rooms. I had some competitions and a lot of car trainers. Jay was boxing, but still I didn't watch his fights, because I couldn't stand to see how he got punches and bruises, how his blood was bleeding. 

One evening when I and Jayden were discussing to organise the resort in our house. It was so big and only there were two of us here. We were thinking about some details and suddenly Jay asked me: "Why did you kill our baby?"

"Jay, is it necessary to speak about it right now?" - I was confused, embarrassed and a bit shocked from unexpectedly question. 

"Yeah, why not? If not now then when?" - he took my hands into his hands. 

"Because, it was impossible to have it. We are close people, our child could be retarded."

"Who said it to you?"

"Scientists, Jayden, and doctors. It can be dangerous."

"Hey, don't steal my phrase. Remember, in our childhood you teased me that I was a coward boy and repeated this phrase all the time." - it seemed to me he wanna finish this unpleasant conversation. I just laughed at him. Then, his eyes became sharp and he asked me another question: "Why didn't you have a baby from Gab?"

"Jay, stop. I don't wanna discuss it. You know my tries, but it was unsuccessful." - I stood up, became angry and my eyes were ready to cry. 

"Sorry me, Jo. Come here." - he hugged me tightly and we were in embrace of each other for a long time, I felt his breathing chest and he smelled my hair and put long kiss on my temples. 

In the morning, I saw my speedboat waving in the water. I jumped out of my bed and hurried to ride on it. Going through the waves I saw Gabriel in my head and understood that I didn't know about him any news. I stopped my boat and wrote to Gab: "Gab, hi there! How is your going, honey?"

He answered: "I'm ok. And you?" 

It wasn't him. He couldn't write so short sms. 

"Gab, are you ok? Are you angry with me?"

"No, never mind."

"If you are upset about our divorce, soon I'm coming to you and we can deal."

"No need to come."

"Why? I don't understand you. Tell me what's up, Gab?"

"Nothing special."

"Gab, I'm getting angry. I'm coming to you today if you don't say to me what the problem is."

"Jo, don't come. I don't wanna you see me in such condition. If you need papers, I will send you by e-mail."

"Gab, what a fuck! Tell me what happened. I'm your close person any way."

But, he stopped answering to me. I was calling him, but he left me without response.