FORBIDDEN LOVE

I wanna give up

I got in my car, turned my head to the passenger's seat. Ben! Again! He taught me making car spin. But I wanna give up, because of him, Ben, he reassured me that it's not so difficult.
"Ok, Jo. I trust you. You can do it. You are talented driver. Listen to the instruction. Roll back two wheel steps, then stop the car, then rush to the high speed, go three wheel steps, then put the brake more slightly like taking care of baby, soft and tender. You must do one spin, Jo." - He smiled and headed to the door.
"Ben, where are you going? Don't you come with me?"
"No, Josephine. You must do it yourself."
"I'm scared, Ben."
"Breathe out, listen to your heart. Between heart beats you put your foot on the brake pedal and step it."
He got out of the car. I breathed deep like in yoga hall. I was whispering swear words, that so was easy.
I rolled back four wheel steps, it was wrong, I decided to come back to the base point. I rolled back two wheel step, stop the car, my palms were wet. I wiped them at my dress. Again took the wheel, I was hearing only noise of my engine and drifting wheels. But I made a mistake, I braked sharp, I was so frightened. My car rushed to the side, leaned and was ready to whirl up and down. But thanks God, it was not happened. It stood still, I didn't move. Then, I crawled out of the car. My fear tears rolled, I started hysterical cry. I kicked my car, I was swearing. I jumped, ran around that car. I was angry with me. Ben caught me into his arms, hugged and kissed me into my head.
"You manage, Jo. I'm sure in it. You are a dangerous woman."

My memory is gone and now I'm sitting in my car, holding my favourite wheel, Ben's speech in my ears. I turn my music on, Ariana Grande can help me do it perfect. Song "Dangerous woman" is singing. Jay came to my side and said: "Josephine, don't do it."
"It's ok, Jay. It's easy. Piece of cake."
"You are so stubborn. Why you tell me stop and I obey you, but when I say to you stop you don't listen to me."
"Because I'm not coward."
"It's stupid, Jo."
"Let it be. And now move your ass away, Jayden."

All men from the bar came out to see my car show. They are screaming, couraging me to say that bitches can't drive at all. Me femine line was in furious.
Desiring to make them eating their own shits fills me.
Listen to instruction - my brain ordered me. Don't hurry, think clear. You can do it any way.
I rolled back two wheel steps, stopped, then moved three steps with raising high speed and dropped the gas slightly, put the brake step by step. If gas and brake in turn, you can round your car as many circles as you wish. But two rounds for them are enough.
My legs and arms were relax. It was the secret to be great in driving. Relax and get pleasure.