don't look back

thirty six|| resolving

Sage.
December 22, 2018.

"I'm so glad Finneas and Claudia found this place," I smiled, looking around at the trees surrounding us.

"Right, thank god. I was fucking losing my mind in that house," Billie chuckled.

It's been ten days since everything went down. With Billie being famous the trial went by fairly quickly as she was a top priority. Sophia got sentenced to a year in juvenile detention and a restraining order against Avianna was put in place. I still don't feel safe walking back into my apartment so I've been living with Billie. All copies of the videos have been detected and deleted offline. Obviously, people probably have it on their phones, but there isn't a single trace of it on the internet. The thought of having to walk back into an apartment that I felt safe in, that was my comfort blanket and riping a camera off the wall frightens me.

Lots of Billies supporters and a few of mine are talking about the videos and questioning us, but I've also seen tons of posts about how it's none of their business and it's true, it's not their business. It wasn't our choice that those videos were put out for everyone to see. You can definitely tell who the real fans are, they either don't bring it up or make statements about how they should leave it alone.

Both Billie and I aren't ready to talk about it with the fans yet but we've been working on our mental health together. Everyone now knows that we are a couple so we haven't been hiding that.

"Smile, my love," Billie exclaimed. I looked up from my phone and gave her a cheesy smile as she took a picture of me and posted it to her story.

"Alright, back to work," I sighed. Both of us have been writing separately and together. This experience has given me a new perspective on things, and a new subject to write about. I believe Sophia truly thought she loved me and is just mentally unstable. Chemical imbalance can make a person crazy.

"What's the word for like not being taken care of?" Billie asked.

"Abandoned?"

"Kind of but more like broken..."

"Neglected?"

"YES! Thank you. For fucks sake I've been trying to remember that word for like ten minutes now," she pulled me into a hug, making me giggle.

We both went back to writing. Billie prefers a notebook while I prefer my phone. I love that she uses a notebook, her words written on a piece of paper are a piece of artwork in itself.

"Sage?" Billie questions. I turned to her and her eyes didn't leave her notebook.

"Yeah?"

"I was thinking about going to therapy and I-I was wondering if you would want to join me?"

"To talk about Sophia?"

"Yeah, and you could also get help for your anxiety."

I took a deep breath, thinking it through quickly, "yeah, okay," I nodded, "but only if you come with me."

"I will, I promise."

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A/N: Okay I'm so excited for this book to be done lmfao. I have like three other books I want to write so bad and this one is going nowhere anymore. There will be 40 chapters in total.