don't look back

ten|| numbers

A/N: This was not fully proofread. Please excuse any errors.

Sage.

September 5, 2018.

"Okay, what's your big news?" I chuckled, annoyed with the excitement and anticipation the two girls were giving me.

"We got accepted!" Sierra squealed.

"FOR REAL?" I practically shouted through the group facetime?

"Dont act so surprised," Aria chuckled.

"I just didn't think you'd both get accepted since you were both on the waiting list," I clarified, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. These two bitches woke me up by spamming me.

"I don't know how it happened but it did. We only start next semester but still!" Sierra explained with a smile on her face.

"I'm so excited, I also have news though," I smirked.

"Oh my god, you finally got some head," Aria clapped.

"No idiot," I rolled my eyes, "I signed the contract!"

"YAS!"

"Fuck yeah!"

"Okay nerds, I gotta go but congrats! I love you," I blew them a kiss.

"Love you too," Sierra blew a kiss back.

"Get some head," Was Aria's last comment before I hung up. I chuckled and shook my head. It has been a while...

My ex sorta fucked me up, Sophia. She was a whole trip, dominant and blunt. She made me fall in love with her and then she became controlling. I let her control everything I did, she constantly wanted to know where I was and how long I would be. She wouldn't let me go places without her. At first I didn't even realize what was happening, I was to entranced with her, until it became extreme and my friends sat me down to talk about it. I don't think she did it on purpose, she had major trust issues and I didn't blame her, she had a rough childhood.

I felt bad how I left things. She was balling her eyes out, I'll never forget the mascara stains on her cheeks when I left her house. She was beautiful, long dark hair, a beautiful figure, and a kind smile. She was toxic though, I had to leave. Its been six months and I haven't been laid since then.

I sighed as I looked through my fridge, all I had left was grapes water, and some cereal sitting on the counter. I slammed the door shut and walked back over to my bed, distracting my growling stomach with my phone.

-

After attempting another grocery trip, I had only a few more things in my fridge. Some more fruit, almond milk, cookies, and a few frozen meals. Luckily I was able to escape the store just as a panic attack was approaching.

Once the few groceries were organized in their places, I opened my youtube. I finally found the confidence. A few thousand views on every video, and hundreds of comments. I made the mistake of scrolling through the comments, the only ones my eyes flew to were the hate comments. How do famous people do this?

Something snapped in my head when I remembered Billie gave me her number yesterday. I opened her contact and entered 'messages'. My hands began to grow shaky as I hit the letters on the keypad.

Hey. It's Sage

Less then a minute passed before I got a response, putting a smile on my face.

i thought you'd never text me

Guess what I did yesterday

uhh...idk

Officially signed the contract

congrats! you're gonna do big things

i'm calling it now

I'm starting to regret it

why? :(

Nevermind

What are you up to?

literally nothing hbu?

Just finished getting groceries

do you live alone?

Yeah I just moved out here on my own

oh damn! that must get lonely

I guess so

I haven't thought much about it

tell me sage, when are you going to send me your music?

Hmmm, I don't have an answer to that one

rude

are you for real? i'm dyyyyyinggg to hear more

shut up it all sucks

you're a liar

i'm going to take a shower, byeeee

nooooo

yes

fine

have fun ;)

A/N: Well this was shorter then I planned for but whatever ig.