Crystal Breeze

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CB44

Pagkatapos naming manatili ng ilang minuto pa ay inaya ako ni Hunter na bumalik na sa reception. Hindi ako pumayag at nagpaiwan na lang. He looks a little bit hesitant to leave me alone but he still does it, otherwise.

I just knew that he needs space away from me and at the same time, I don't think I have enough strength to face his family like nothing happened.

Nasasaktan ako. I would probably be more okay if he got angry. Kung sisisihin niya ako at susumbatan. It will hurt because he matters so much to me but I can endure. Kasi alam ko naman na may karapatan din siya doon. Yet even up until the end, he still prioritized me and my feelings.

How would I be able to deserve that?

He can even be my best friend. For years, he put up with me... no matter how broken and unrepairable I am. Kahit tanggihan ko siya ng pauulit-ulit, itulak palayo. Come to think of it, I never even asked him about his feelings. Kahit dati... at hanggang ngayon.

I've been too unfair to him.

"Hey... how's the wedding?" salubong na bati saakin ni Rion sa kabilang linya noong nagdesisyon akong tawagan siya.

"It was beautiful..." I answered him while looking at the dark sky.

Hinintay ko siyang sumagot saakin ngunit napagtanto ko na hindi pala kasagot-sagot ang sinabi ko. I was about to speak again when I heard his voice.

"Did you cry? Your voice is groggy."

Hindi ako nakasagot. He can say that just by listening to my voice?

"Rion..."

"Hmm... what's wrong? Where are you?"

I bit my lips hard. His voice is so sweet. It felt like it's soothing my pained and unrestful heart.

"Hunter and I talked..." mahina kong kwento sa kanya. Hindi ko na pinansin ang nauna niyang tanong.

"I see... how did it go?"

"Fine..."

"Are you okay? Do you want me to come over?"

I chuckled lowly. Imagining him being really with me right now feels nice.

"Anong come over? Parang nasa kabilang bahay lang ako ah..." biro ko.

"Are you challenging me?"

Mas napatawa pa ako dahil tunog naiinis na naman iyon. It's so easy to make him pissed off.

"Hindi ah..." mahina kong sabi. I paused for a little, visualizing how would he look like while talking to me right now. Is he still in his office? "Gusto lang kitang marinig..." payapa kong wika.

Natahimik siya sa kabilang linya ngunit rinig ko pa rin ang tikhim niya.

"Rion..."

"What?"

"That day... on Sena's birthday before... you asked me to come home for tomorrow because you have something to say to me. Do you remember that?"

Kumabog ng mabilis ang dibdib ko. I never forgot that. I know exactly how I felt and what I was thinking that day. Kahit hindi ko natupad iyon, patago kong hiniling na sana ay nagawa kong makabalik, at sana naghihintay nga siya saakin. I imagined how would it felt like to return to him, what will he say to me, and how will I answer him.

I hoped for the circumstances to change... even though I don't really know what he'll say to me. My heart just really anticipated what it wants to hear.