She's not Afraid || JJ Maybank ||

22. Haircut

When Rae started chemo her thick hair started coming out in clumps. It was really hard to see it fall out and watch her cry and ask where her hair went so they decided to shave it.
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"You ready for a haircut" Lee smiles while tickling the small girl. The baby laughs and shrieks "what is going on in here?" JJ laughs while fiddling with his razor. "Hair cut dada" Raelyn smiles while pointing to her head. "yup you're gonna get a haircut" he kisses her head.

Lee runs her fingers through her thick head of hair one last time before JJ clicks on the razor and starts cutting. He'd offered for her to do it but she said she couldn't. Tears gather in her eyes as she watched JJ carefully shave off her hair.

"my turn?" the baby questions while crunching her little nose and reaching for the razor. JJ looks over at Lee and shrugs "JJ don't even-" Lee starts to argue but JJ clicks the razor back on and hands it to the little girl. Despite the fear of the kid cutting his head with her not so great motor skills he lets her do it.

JJ point to his head "right here" he smiles as she puts it so his head. Lydia didn't like the idea of JJ shaving his head but she wasn't about to stop him, he loved Rae more than anyone could even imagine so telling him no was out of the ballpark.

His blonde locks fall to the ground as he guides her hand over his head. "Dada haircut!" she giggles in excitement. He eventually takes the razor from her and finishes it himself before putting it away.

"I look like Mr Clean" JJ gasps while looking at himself in the mirror. "how attractive" she jokes while planting a soft kiss on his cheek. Lydia cried about JJ sometimes, not for any bad reason. She was just beyond happy and lucky to have him especially through all this.

"daddy you're hair all gone!" Rae shrieks while waddling up to him. He scoops her up into his muscular arms and kisses her cheek. "we're matching" he smiles while scrunching his nose like she always does. The little girls fingers run over his head then her own "I want my hair back" she whimpered.

So it begins... this was gonna be a hell of a journey. I'm that moment everything clicked into JJs mind at once.... she might not get better.

"It'll grow back eventually bubba" he smiles and whipped away the babies tear. "you're so pretty you know that, you're like your mommy"

Lee looks over at the two together, it was Raes world and they where living in it and that was that.

JJ rubs her back as she wrest her head onto his shoulder "you ready for bed?" he whispers as she nods in response. He goes to go into her room but Lee drags them both to her and JJs room. "you wanna sleep with mommy and daddy?" Lydia softly whispers at the baby. "Mhm" she whispers back as JJ lays her down.

They all crawl into bed together, Raelyn clings onto the both of them before falling asleep. Lee kisses her head "you're a great dad you know that?" she whispers to JJ who's also falling asleep. "you're a great mom you know that?" he whispers in reply before falling asleep.

Lee lays there wide awake for god knows how many hours before Rae stirs and wakes up abruptly as tears fall down her face. "its gonna get me" she cries into Lee. "shhhh what was baby?" Lyd whispers back while trying her best to calm her down. JJ sits up at the sound "whats getting you Rae Rae?" he whispers to her.

"the sick"

Raelyn called her cancer "sick" nobody knew why she did but that's what she called it. Lee looks up and JJ and bring the girl into her lap. "it's ok to be scared Rae, we're right here I promise" Lydia tells the girl.

JJ looks at the girls, the two girls he loved the most in this world and his heart shatters. He pulls them both into his arms without a single word coming out of his lips. "it'll all be ok" he whispers as they calm down.

"it'll all be ok...."

IM SORRY OK