Be with You

Chapter twenty two

This is the most frustrating ever, when you want a relationship but are still afraid and not ready to commit again. When you can't let your heart open again because you think they are all the same. That you build yourself for how many years tapos sisirain lang nila. Nakakapagod... bumalik sa umpisa.

"I'm sorry, TJ... I can't." I shook my head and gave him a sad smile. TJ is my suitor actually since college. Akala ko talaga kaibigan lang ang turing niya sa akin kagaya ng pagtingin ko sa kaniya.  He kept pursuing me ever since... I try to work with him but it didn't work. He asked me to be his girlfriend and I still can't. 

He bowed his head.

TJ is a good-looking man, he has this aura that everyone falls in love with him. He's so kind to everyone. His skin was naturally white and his nose was perfectly pointed. He looks always good in his nurse uniform. 

"Alright. I guess this is my last? I've done this many times but right now was kind of painful." He chuckled pero may bahid na kalungkutan ang kaniyang tawa.

"Really, you can find a woman that will love you the way you love me. The right woman will come to you at the right time." I honestly said. I squeezed his hand to know that I will still be there for him.

"Right. I will hold on to that, Doc." he still managed to smile at me even though there was bitterness in his smile. 

"I guess this a goodbye?" kumunot ang noo ko.

"What?"

"I got hired to the company I'm applying for in Las Vegas." my eyes widened.

"Congrats!" I said and hugged him. 

"You didn't tell me though, why now?" I asked curiously.

"I don't know, maybe I just want to leave without seeing your face because it'd be so hard to leave then." he shrugged. 

"I guess I need to pull myself together so I can leave?" He added.

I bit my lips and lightly tapped his shoulders. I can't believe I'm letting go of the guy who stood up and wait for me to be ready. But I think I'm still not. 

"Come on! You can find some hot woman there!" I lighten up the atmosphere so that he wouldn't be sad about leaving. 

"Yeah, I have to go I need to pack my things," he said. I nodded and hugged him tightly as possible I could ever. 

He's been my boy best friend since then, he help me all these years. And I'm grateful for him.

"Have a safe flight. Thank you for everything, TJ! I'm going to miss you." I whispered. After how many years we hung out, I felt sad saying goodbye to him. He hugged me back and tapped my back.

"Bye Doc Plavin. See you soon." He waved his hand and drove out.