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Beside (93)

It's stupid. Kinda unbelievable too. That I let someone I was sleeping with casually,'s engagement announcement send my life into such a tragic spiral.

I know I'm not straight anymore. I want to say I'm bi, but I don't feel a thing for Kim. She's been hinting at marriage too and some how it all hit a head when the announcement came across my timeline. To her, it was another sign that we should get married and to me it was proof of everything I wanted.

I asked her to move out. I gave her the apartment for a month and during that month I went back home. To Bumfuck nowhere, Ohio

But back home was too many questions, too many people wanting to know, what I was doing back, why I wasn't at college, why I left my girlfriend, why I was such a mess.

So I ended up at my high school bestfriends place at 1am with tears in my eyes and a story I wouldn't tell him.

I sit on Lee's couch of his modest apartment while he sat next to me in his pjays his long black hair a mess.

"So are you not gonna talk about it?" He asks and I shake my head and he seems hurt by it.

"Dude seriously, after everything we've been through?" He says and I turn away from him.

"Like what, my ninth grade girlfriend cheating on me? This isn't like that Lee and I don't need to be judged." I say.

"Wow really dude. Me judge you." He asks and I sigh.

"Lee, we're adults now, or at least more close then when I left. Things are some much bigger then here, so much deeper." I say and he seems a bit upset by it.

"We'll I'm sorry I never left bumb fuck nowhere Ohio." He says and I sigh.

"Lee I'm in love with someone?" I say finally.

"And that someone is engaged to a guy that he met while we were sleeping around. We weren't dating but-"

"Ted you in love with a guy? Dude, that's gay." He says and I stand.

"I knew this would happen." I say and he only grabs my arm.

"Dude no, I'm sorry it's fine, I'm just surprised that's all. You never seemed interested in guys?" He says.

"I wasn't! I just he was cute and wanted me to help him get over some highschool crush. I was drunk and wasn't completely turned off him so I agreed." I tell him.

"We weren't even friends, we just slept together and when I started to catch feelings he wanted no part. Because I was straight. But no straight guy is having sex regularly with a dude right. But it doesn't matter cause his totally 'straight' roommate. They're officially dating two weeks after he moved in. And well, that's okay they won't last that long. Wrong now their engaged and fuck why did he get a chance! Why not me!" I say starting to cry about it. Finally I had said it and fuck it only hurts more hearing myself because I'm in love with him and I can't have him.

Lee doesn't say anything as I sit with my head in my hands.

"It just started with sex right? Why don't you just find someone else to have sex with then? You know how he used you to get over his crush, why don't you do the same." He says and I look up at him.

"Yeah right, even if I wanted to. Where am I going even find a guy to have sex with in bumfuck no where Ohio." I tell him and he looks away but blush begins to show up on his very pale skin.

"I don't mind." He whispers and suddenly I'm hit with the weight of a train.

"Lee are you gay!" I shout and he covers my mouth.

"Idiot!" He hisses at me but now that we're face to face I just stare at him in shock.

"I had no idea, when did you- how long have you known?" I ask and he drops my head.