Call center wala love

Chapter 68

Jai: Avu kaha gayi? { Where did Avu go?}

Abhi: Use nahi sunna hai mai jo bolne wala hu, isliye woh chali gayi. Avu bhale hi emotionally mature lagti hai, lekin andar se bahut kamzor hai. Uski ye kamzori hi wajah hai hum dono ke bond ki. Wajah koyi nahi janta hai, Avu bhi nahi. Shayad koyi bachpan ka trauma ho. Uska bachpan usko khudko nahi yaad hai adoption se pehle ka. Wo apne emotions handle nahi kar sakti hai. Kabhi kabhi uske emotions usko control karne lagte hai, jaise kal raat hua. { She doesn't want to hear what I am going to say. Though Avu seems emotionally mature, she is very weak from inside. This weakness of hers was the reason we share the bond we have. No one knows the reason, not even Avu. Maybe some childhood trauma. She herself doesn't remember her childhood before the adoption. She can't handle her emotion. Sometimes, her emotions start controlling her, just like they did last night.}

Jai: Emotions use control karte hai? { Emotions control her?}

Abhi: Use nightmares aate hai, par use kabhi kuch yaad nahi rehta hai ki kya dekha tha. Humne doctor se baat ki, unhone bola yeh extra stress se, ya ikdam se bahut udaas ho jaane par, ya ikdam high temper hone par hota hai. Aur iske nightmares ko response alag hote hai. Kabhi bhaagne ki koshish karti hai, kabhi ikdam se mujhe hug karke rone lagti hai, toh kabhi sirf baithi rehti hai, bilkul respond nahi karti hai. {She gets nightmares, but she is never able to remember them. We contacted a psychologist who said this happens whenever she has extra stress, gets very sad suddenly or her temper rises very much. And her responses to them are different. Sometimes she tries running away, sometimes she just hugs me and start crying and sometimes she'll just be sitting blankly, doesn't respond to anything.}

Jai: Maine pehle aisa kuch nahi suna hai. { I've never heard of anything like this.}

Abhi: Doctor ne bhi yahi bola tha. Wo bhaagne ki koshish karti hai, jab ghussa hoti ya hurt hoti hai, wo roti hai jab bahut udaas hoti hai, aur respond nahi karti hai jab kaaran stress hota hai. Jab woh bhaagne ki koshish karti hai, doctor ne ek dawayi di hai, woh deni padti hai, par pata nahi kyu, Avni ko dar lagta hai usse. Jab respond nahi karti, use sulana hota hai, jo bahut mushkil hai. Lekin is sabke beech woh khudko chot pahucha leti hai. Yeh almost roz hota tha, aur woh jab un sab choto ko dekhti, roti thi, use bilkul pasand nahi the woh nishaan. Woh depression mein chali gayi thi unhe dekh kar. Isliye kayi baar mai uske room mein sota tha, taaki sone se pehle wo khush rahe. Wo mai ya toh usse baat karke karta tha, ya tv par cartoons lagakar. Sid aur Vaishu ke aane ke baad use hardly 1-2 baar aaye the yeh nightmares, phir rukh gaye. Lekin kal use phirse nightmare aaya, aur woh pehle respond nahi kar rahi thi, phir suddenly bhaagne ki koshish karne lagi, phir rone lagi, isliye mujhe use dawayi deni padi. Aur use itni zyada pehle kabhi nahi lagi. Hamesha Jaan ya Reem uski bandage lagate the, aur hum unhe bahane bolte the. { The psychologist had said the same. She tries running when the reason is hurt or anger, she cries when the reason is sadness and doesn't respond when the reason is stress. The doctor gave a medicine for when she tries running away, which I don't know why Avu is scared of. When she isn't responding I have to make her sleep which is really difficult. But between all this she ends up hurting herself . Earlier it used to happen almost everyday, and whenever she used to see the wounds she would cry, she hated those marks. She had gone to depression due to those. That's why I used to sleep in her room, so that she is happy while sleeping, by talking or watching cartoons. After Sid and Vaish came she had them barely once or twice, then they stopped. But yesterday she again had a nightmare, where she showed all the three responses, so I had to give her the medicine. And she hasn't got so much hurt till today. Every time Jaan or Reem would bandage her wound and we would make excuses.}

Jai: Wo sab bahane maan lete the? { They would believe all the excuses?}

Abhi: Ha, kyunki Avni ke haat, paun ya muh par lagti thi, toh mai hi bandage laga deta tha, aur wo unhe full length kapdo se, ya phir concealer se chupati thi. { Yes, because if Avni would hurt her hands, legs or face I would bandage it which she would hide by wearing full length clothes or concealer.}