Lost It All

Hold Me Close

~*~||Four Months Later||~*~

Alora's P.O.V.

Things around the bus have been a bit more crazy than usual. Chrissy and CC fight more, Juliet has been a bit more bitchy than normal since I've put on weight from the pregnancy. Jinxx has been around a bit more, I'm thinking about asking him to be the baby's GodFather, along with the rest of the guys too, but, if anything were to happen to Ashley or I, I want the baby to be with him. He would be a good father figure for our baby. Having jumped from hospital to hospital the last few months of touring Jinxx was always with me when Ashley couldn't be, and he has helped me a lot. Today was the day that we would be finding out the sex of the baby, Ashley had a meeting in LA about his clothing line that he couldn't ditch or else I knew he would be with me. But Jinxx was going to come with me and hold my hand and take a video to send to Ashley so it was like he wasn't missing anything. We were just getting off the bus and I heard something crash and I looked over my shoulder seeing Chrissy chasing after CC as he ran off the bus, she threw an empty beer bottle at him and it crashed on the pavement. I had jumped out of the way just in time for Chrissy to start screaming. "Why the fuck are you talking to that slut!?" CC threw his arms up in protest. "We're just talking babe! Nothing is going in between Lauren and I!" The two kept going back and forth, I just took a deep breath and walked over to the curb it get in the car with Jinxx, but Ashley grabbed me around my waist and twirled me around for a kiss before. I giggled softly and kissed him back. "I'll see you at home, okay?" He said, brushing my still long, black and purple hair out of my face and kissing my forehead. "Yep, I'll make sure Jinxx documents everything and we'll send it to you right away." I said with a small smile before giving Ashley one last kiss and getting in the car. I looked over at Jinxx and smiled a bit as I buckled myself in the seat and pulled my hair into a ponytail. "Later man, I'll keep her safe, I promise." Jinxx said with a smile and a flip of his hair before waving and driving towards the hospital. "Are you excited, Alora?" He asked as he rubbed my shoulder in a comforting way, he could feel my nervousness, I'm sure of it. "Yeah, I guess I am. I'm just glad that we won't be on the bus for some time now. To actually be back in a house, and able to start prepping the baby's room. I think it'll ease my nerves a bit." I replied as I picked at my nails. Jinxx nodded and smiled a bit. Our ride to the hospital was filled with recalling funny moment from tour and other things. When we pulled into the parking lot of the hospital Jinxx got out of the car and opened my door for me and held out his arm for me to hold onto as we walked in together. "I'll go get you all checked in, okay?" Jinxx said as he sat me down in one of the over stuffed, firm waiting room chairs. I nodded and rubbed my tummy a little, I could feel the little human inside me roll around a bit, and that brought a smile to my face. Because we had been on tour I haven't been able to get to the doctor since the first visit to make sure I really was pregnant and that it wasn't just some faulty drugstore tests. When Jinxx came back I looked up at him and he smiled when he sat next to me. "It's kicking, you wanna feel?" I asked as I reached for his hand. My raven haired friend nodded and smiled giving me his hand. Taking his well calloused hand I put it on my tummy where I last felt a little roll and smiled when there was a small kick. I giggled and looked up to see the smile on Jinxx's face. "Jinxx, can I ask you something?" I asked as I shifted a little in the uncomfortable chair. "Sure, what's up Alora?" I let go of his hand and he took it back and put his arms behind his head. "Would you like to be the GodFather to mine and Ashley's baby?" Jinxx looked like he was going to cry, he hugged me tight. "Of course I will. I'd do anything for you guys." He said with a smile and a chuckle. Then my name was called and we walked back together.

After getting changed into the hospital gown and laying the paper-like sheet over my legs Jinxx came back in the room and started to take pictures and send them to Ashley. I was making weird faces and Jinxx and I took pictures together. I was so glad that he was able to be here with me, I don't think I would have come, even though it was just an ultrasound. After a few moments the ultrasound tech came in and put the ultrasound goo on my round, strechmark covered pelvis, I was so self conscious about that now that I couldn't even take showers with Ashley anymore. I didn't want him to see me at my worst. As soon as the machine was turned on Jinxx started filming. I looked over at the screen and smiled a bit, seeing that the image of the baby was bigger and moving around. "Would you like to know the sex?" The ultrasound tech asked as she started to print out the pictures. "Please." I replied. "It looks like you're having a girl, congratulations." She said as she wiped off my pelvis. I smiled and looked at the screen then at my tummy. "You're a girl. You're my girl, my beautiful girl." I said with some tears in my eyes. Jinxx smiled and hugged me tight and left so that I could redress and we could leave.

When we left the hospital we headed back to Ashley and I's apartment. Ashley had dropped off our bags before his meeting and I was going to start the laundry and order us some dinner before he got home. "Thanks so much for coming with me Jinxx, I really appreciate it." I said as I gave him a hug and kissed his cheek. "No problem Alora, just give me a call if you need something okay?" He said with a smile. I nodded and pulled my key's out of my bag and started to head up the stairs to the apartment. When I got there Killer and Tokyo were crying to be let out of their kennels. I smiled and let them out and got them some fresh food. Then I went and got the bags from the bedroom and threw a load on clothes in the wash then grabbed my phone off the counter and found a sushi place that delivers. I ordered some sushi for Ashley and some soup and tempura for myself. Before I knew it the food was here and I was still waiting for Ashley to get home. I had turned on the television and turned on a random channel while Killer and Tokyo fought over who would be laying on my lap before I ended up dosing off.