Afraid to Love

Chapter 8

Chapter 8;

*Makenzies POV*

"Carson, everything will be okay," I whispered to him. I had Carson in my arms. "Don't worry."

Carson sat up, and looked at me with those beautiful eyes of his, "What if it's not okay? What if my dad comes after me? He's still out there." He got to his feet and wiped at his eyes.

I stood up with him and held his arms. He flinched, like I was going to hit him. I looked into his eyes and saw a broken soul.

A broken heart.

"Everything will be okay, " I repeated, "And your dad won't come after you. You have me, Tyler, and Danielle looking after you." I started rubbing up and down his arms and he seemed to calm down a bit.

He nodded and walked over to his bed, gently laying down, closing his eyes, and murmuring, "You won't tell anyone about this, will you?"

"No. I won't."

"Thank you." He yawned, and then curled up in the fetal position.

"Do you want me to leave?" I asked, hoping he would say no. I only wanted to comfort him, and be here with him all night. I didn't care if my friends were here or not.

"I need some time alone." He finally said after 5 minutes.

I sighed, and left his room.

*Carsons POV*

Once Makenzie left I felt the tears sting my eyes once more. I was so sick of crying. I've been doing so much of that lately. I just kept thinking about what I told Makenzie.

Maybe I'm just overreacting, or maybe I'm just being foolish, or being stupid, pathetic, worthless, a piece of shit.... My dad used to call me those words. They hurt so much.

I just don't know what else to do.

I started crying again, so I sat up and tried to find the razor that Makenzie threw on the floor. Once I found it, I pulled up my sleeve on my right arm, and put the razor to my skin.

"Stupid..." I murmured.

Cut.

"Pathetic..."

Cut.

"Worthless..."

Cut.

I had three identical cuts going up my wrist. They started bleeding really bad but I didn't care. I deserved it. I deserved every bit of it. I didn't deserve to live though.

*Makenzies POV*

Nikki, Madison, and Hayley were all bugging me about what happened when I finally came downstairs.

"So, did you get anything out of him?!" asked Madison, scooting closer to me on the couch.

"What did he say? What did he say?!" squealed Nikki.

"You better of gotten something out of him. We sat down here forever." Hayley muttered, looking at the ground.

I was getting furious. "No. He wouldn't tell me anything." I lied through my teeth, and I had to concentrate on something to keep myself from blowing up on them.

Nikki gave me a hard look and crossed her arms. "You know what I think? I think you did but you won't tell us. We won't tell anyone, we promise." Nikki held out her pinkie and wanted to pinkie promise me.

I looked at her disgusted and kept my mouth shut. Madison sighed heavily, and got up off the couch. Nikki soon followed behind her. Hayley was the only person who stayed with me.

"If you're not gonna tell us, then we're leaving." Madison threatened, but I don't think she realizes that I don't care. I didn't say anything to her and she just stomped her foot and stormed out with Nikki.

Hayley looked up at me. "I won't leave you, Makenzie. Nikki and Madison are jerks."

"Carsons business isn't anyone's to know. All you need to know is that he had a rough life."

Nothing more, and nothing less.