Afraid to Love

Chapter 37

Authors Note; sorry that I haven't been updating guys! I've been really stressed and busy lately so I haven't had time! But I hope you enjoy this chapter!

Chapter 37;

*Makenzies POV*

"Mom? Dad?" I heard my voice off in the distance. It sounded like I was in the middle of no where, and I was alone. I walked around for what seemed like forever until I finally bumped into something.. Or someone. I looked down, and there was the most cutest little girl I have ever seen. She had light curly blonde hair, brown eyes, dimples, and a cheeky smile. She smiled at me, and her smile met her eyes.

"Who are you?" I asked, and bent down.

"I'm Emileigh! What's yours?" She asked excitedly. Her voice chirped like birds.

Emileigh? Emileigh... That name... It sounded familiar. I took a second glance at her, and the more I said her name, the more the resemblance took place. This was Carson's little sister.

It couldn't be.

But... She was dead.

Was I dead too? My head hurt, and this all felt like a dream. Emileigh glared at me impatiently, and huffed. She crossed her little arms, and peered up at me.

"My name is Makenzie... Where are we?"

She looked around. "We're in the land of no where! We don't get newcomers often!"

"What?"

"You're dead, and so am I!"

"I'm not dead..."

"You are!"

"You're... Carson's little sister..."

She blinked and turned wide eyed. Her face saddened, and her eyes welled up with tears.

"How do you know my brother?"

I placed my hand on her shoulder, and her body was cold... Lifeless. "I'm dating him..."

"How is he?"

"He's fine,"

"Tell him I said 'I love you Car!' he will get what you mean, if you say those!" She skipped off, and I couldn't see her again.

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"Come on, Makenzie, wake up! Please?!" I heard a voice plead, and it sounded like Carson's.

I couldn't move, or respond to him. Even though I wished I could.. I just felt dead. Maybe I was. I don't know. I felt someone squeeze my hand.

"Come on, I know you're in there! Squeeze my hand if you can hear me!"

I can hear you, but I can't move. Oh how badly I wanted I respond to him. His voice started to crack, and I felt so bad. I wanted to comfort him, and be there for him.

"You-u... Can't be d-dead... You can't fucking leave me! Please... Wake up!" He was crying, and on the last few words, his voice was quiet, and he hid his face in my bed. He kissed my hand numerous times. "I finally found love again, and now it's gone. Just like everything else. Why does everyone leave me?! Makenzie, please... I love you so god damn much... Words can't describe it... If you wake up, I will never take life for granted ever again! I will protect you... I will love you... Just please don't leave me...." his voice cracked at every other word.

He sounded so broken... So dull... So sad... I tried moving, and I felt Carson's head flick up. He squeezed my hand again, and it hurt. I lightly squeezed back, but it was weak. He kissed my hand, and I heard his breathing pick up. I felt myself coming to, and everything hurt. My head, my chest, my arm... What happened? I still felt drowsy.

Carson called the doctor in, and they hurried as fast as they could. They took my breathing tube out, and I coughed violently. They put a needle in my arm, and I felt a wave of relief come over me. They left, and Carson looked at me as I opened my eyes. He smiled so big through his tears. Oh how I was so happy to see him.

"You're awake... You're okay..." He breathed, and then hugged me lightly. He cried into my shoulder.

"Carson..." my voice was raspy, and barely a whisper. I was thirsty... How long was I out? "I only slept for 10 minutes... I wasn't gone for that long..."

He pushed back, and placed his hands on my shoulders. "Makenzie, you were in a coma for 3 months..."

3 months? Holy shit. What did I miss?

"Oh, sorry,"

He laughed lightly, and sat back down on the chair next to my bed. "What're you sorry for?" he grabbed my hand. "You couldn't help it,"

"Did you stay here the entire time?"

He blushed, and it looked cute. "Yes. Except for when I went home for some new clothes and a shower..." He seemed embarrassed.

I giggled and it hurt. My face became pained and Carson gave me a look of worry. "Don't move," he instructed. I nodded and laid my head back down on the pillow. He relaxed a little bit, and laced my hand with his.

"I'm thirsty... I want to go home..."

Carson shifted uncomfortably, and didn't look at me. I glared at him, and he backed down under my gaze.

"What aren't you telling me?"

"Um.. Your parents are dead, Kenz. We're going to be staying with Alec and Bentley now..."

My dad was... Dead? Really? Oh my god. This was such a stress reliever. I smiled and Carson seemed confused by my reaction.

"Why're you smiling?" he asked.

"Now he won't bother us... We can finally be together!"

He smiled, and squeezed my hand. I was feeling sick and tired. I closes my eyes, and I felt Carson kiss my lips.

"Oh! I have to tell you something!"

"What?"

"I love you, Car,"

He froze, and he didn't blink. He knew what I meant, and he didn't need an explanation. "Emileigh..." that's all he could say.

"I saw her... She said she loves you. She misses you, Carson,"

Carson's eyes became welled up with tears again. "Okay, Makenzie. That's enough. Just go to sleep, babe. I'll be here when you wake up again, and hopefully that's soon,"

I nodded, and closed my eyes again. "Hey, Carson?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you too," I smiled, and fell asleep again.

Authors Note; sorry that this was short. But I have stuff to do tonight. Also, this is NOT the end of Afraid to Love. There are more chapters to come.