Afraid to Love

Chapter 17

Chapter 17;

*Makenzies POV*

I was downstairs watching TV with Carson, and my parents. This was the first actual time we all spent time together as a family. My dad switched the news on, and drank a sip of his coffee.

"Breaking News!" The news reporter shouted. "There has been a 7 year old child brutally murdered last night, and has just been found this morning. We don't have any incites on who the murderer could be, but policemen are working on finding the suspect."

They showed a picture of the girl who was murdered. She was blonde, had emerald green eyes, and freckles on her nose. She was smiling, and her hair flowed down past her shoulders.

I looked over at Carson, who seemed frozen on the couch. He couldn't take his eyes off of the TV. "The child's name was Aurora Hamilton. Coroners say she was also molested before she was murdered." the news reporter continued.

Just then, I heard something crack against the wall, and glass flew everywhere. Carson's hand was bloody, and he was on his feet.

"Carson, what the hell has gotten into you?!" Tyler exclaimed, trying to push my mom off of him.

Carson didn't respond. He kept picking things up and throwing them at the wall. There were shards of glass everywhere now, and I couldn't stand up without piercing my foot with it.

"Carson?!" My dad pleaded. He took Carson by the shoulders and shook him. Carson started pushing him off, and punching at him.

"Get the fuck off of me!" Carson yelled.

"First, tell me why you're throwing a tantrum!"

"I knew that girl on the TV! I met her last night!"

"And?"

Carson's eyes grew deadly. "She reminds me of my sister. She was raped and then murdered too! Aurora was a sweet girl... I made her go home... When she didn't want to... This is my fault."

"Carson, what the hell are you talking about?" Danielle pipped up.

Carson closed his eyes, and held the bridge of his nose with his index and middle finger. "Get off me, Tyler."

Tyler let him go, and stepped back. Carson looked like he was about to snap again, but remained calm. He bent down, and started scraping the glass in his hands, not caring that he would cut himself in the process.

"Put that down. You'll hurt yourself." Danielle ordered, and slapped Carsons hands. Carson looked up at her, and sighed. He slowly stood back up, and walked towards the stairs.

"I'm going to my room." That was all he said.

.......

*Carsons POV*

Aurora... Was murdered. I caused it. I made her go home. She warned me about her dad. Her dad was a sick man. Maybe he was the one who killed his daughter. If he did, that sick bitch is going straight to hell.

I was laying on my floor, just staring at my ceiling, like I usually do. I had the urge to cut, but I had no razors yet again. I started biting my lip, and scratched at my wrist.

I heard a knock at my door, and I ignored it. I didn't want to see anyone right now. I wanted alone time. I had enough family bonding for one night. The person didn't seem to care, and just walked right into my room. It was Makenzie.

She glared at me, with a confused look in her eyes, and she sat down next to me. "What happened?" She asked.

I knew exactly what she meant. "It was my fault..."

"Nothing is your fault, Carson."

"I told her to go home, and she ran off... She told me about her dad."

"What did she tell you?"

"That he neglected her, and that her dad had a new girlfriend. She wouldn't tell me if he beat her or not."

Makenzie looked down at her feet, and closed her eyes. "Oh," Makenzies voice started to crack, and she buried her face in her knees. "I'm sorry that she's gone."

"I'm sorry too... Hey... Are you alright?" I sat up, and put my hand on her back. She looked up at me, with tears in her eyes. I was shocked, and I didn't expect her to be the one crying. I pulled her close, but I cringed a little at her touch. She cried into my shirt, and held her hands close to my chest.

I let her do what she wanted to do, but I never wrapped my arms around her. Makenzie peeked up at me, and I looked down at her. She started to slowly lean in towards my lips, and she closed her eyes. I didn't know what she was doing, and I wanted it to stop.

"No... Makenzie..."

"I'm sorry..." She got to her feet, and wiped at her face. "I'll go now. I came in here to see if you were alright." She left the room without another word.

Makenzie... Tried to kiss me... She has feelings for me.