CHAOS

Chapter 24

Chapter Twenty-four

The world is dark, and selfish and cruel. If it finds even a little ray of sunlight, it destroys it ! And I think the little ray of sunlight that slowly shining in my life is going to be destroyed again. My life that is now slowly being brighten will be again, back to it's normal dark, lonely and chaotic just because of the same reason.

Alas tres y medya na nang maihatid ako ni Cy pabalik sa bahay.

"Are you sure, you're keeping those men? They will just be a hindrance for your plan. Why don't you let Huang have them and- " I cut him off.

"And just continue to hide and just let those men die? Is that it, huh Cy?" Hindi ko na mapigilang mainis. Cymiel is not like this. He have never been against with my plans. Ngayon lang. "Just do what I told you to do." Mariing saad ko bago pumasok ng bahay.

"Half past three huh?" Natigil ako sa paglalakad nang biglang may magsalita sa gawi ng sofa. "Uwi ba to ng matinong babae?" Gusto ko nalang matawa sa narinig.

She's like every teenagers mom whenever they come home late.

I saw Dylan sitting on the couch with all the lights turned off at tanging ang ilaw galing sa labas ang nagsisilbing ilaw para maaninag ko sya.

"Don't act as if you're my mother." Asik ko sa kanya bago sya tinalikuran ngunit hindi pa man ako nakakaisang hakbang ay agad na akong natigilan dahil sa narinig.

"But I am the man who kissed you the other night." Muli akong napabaling sa kanya at matalim syang tinignan. He stood up. " What do you think I will think if the woman I kissed the other night was been fetch by a man and been sent home half past three in the morning? What did they do?" He said while walking slowly towards me, with both of his hands in his pockets.

Ano bang iniisip nyang ginawa namin ni Cymiel at kung ano man iyon ay sigurado akong nag kakamali sya.

were like inside the court house and I am under investigation and been interrogated by him as the judge. This man is making me pissed even more but he also at the same time making me feel these goddamn butterfly in my stomach!

Ano ba Zen? Umayos ka nga!

"That mistake again huh?" Walang ganang saad ko.

Let's just consider it a mistake para hindi na ako mahirapang mag isip pa ng kung ano mang dahilan kung bakit nya iyon ginawa.

"Mistake." Paguuilit nya. Mapakla syang natawa bago ako hinarap. "Drunken Mistake for you, young lady, but not for me." Ilang beses akong napakurap dahil sa narinig.

"W-wil you forget about that goddamn mistake! So what if it happened? Huh?" Bulalas ko sa harap nya. Hindi na ako mapakali pa sa aking kinatatayuan habang sya naman ay tila nasisiyahan sa sitwasyong aking kinalalagyan.

"At Isa pa wala kanang pakealam kung anong oras ako uuwi at kung uuwi pa man ako! At bahala ka kung anong iniisip mong ginawa namin ni Cymiel, baka nga totoo ya-!" Nagulat ako nang bigla nyang hilain ang aking bewang at siilin ng Isang napakatamis na halik refraining me to talk further.

Dang! Here we go again! My mind and heart keeps arguing again. My mind tells me to punch him but my heart and body won't agree! Nakakainis! How can this man takes over my entire being?!

I regret ever meeting him cause he keeps ruining everything including the wall I built to secure my heart and refrain from being hurt again, but why does the thought of losing this asshole makes my heart ache? why does his kisses comfort me?  It's like he poisoned me and I don't want him to stop.

This will be a big problem. Me, wanting him in my life will cause a big trouble and will ruin everything again. But I am ready now to face all the consequences just to feel the happiness that he's giving even it's just temporary, I still want it. I am willing and ready to pay for the price, even if it costs my life.