CHAOS

CHAPTER 48

Chapter Forty-eight

I was thinking about what it must be like to not to turn away from something you like. I am sick and tired of having to turn my back on the things that I like in order to protect the people around me.

Ngayong tapos na ang lahat ng kagulohang aking kinakaharap, oras na ba para gawin ko na man ang gusto ng puso ko? Pero di ko parin maiwasang mangba, because everytime I try to do the things that I like, things go awry.

"I cooked some porridge for you, Noona." Napangite naman ako Kay Zaire na inilalahad sa akin ang isang mangkok ng porridge na kanyang dala.

"Thank you." Agad ko iyong tinanggap at ipinatong sa maliit na lamesang nasa aking harapan.

"You're boyfriend seems angry at me." Nangunot naman ang aking noo dahil sa sinabing iyon ni Zaire.

"Boyfriend?" Napatingin naman si Zaire Kay Dylan na Ngayon ay nakatingin parin sa Amin.

Kung Hindi lang ako nasa ganitong kalagayan ngayon ay siguradong Hindi na ako matigil sa pag tawa nang makita ko kanina ang itsura ni Dylan nang dumating si Zaire na agad akong niyakap.

"Oh, he's not my boyfriend Zaire." Natatawang saad ko. "He's uhmm... Just a part of my past." Mahinang saad ko.

I asked Dylan to give us privacy na agad naman nyang ginawa. Akala ko nga marami pa syang sasabihin but thankfully, Wala naman. Tinapunan nya lang ako ng nag babantang tingin bago lumabas ng kwarto.

"Anyway, I'm happy you called, Noona. I was worried I can't reach you for 3 days." So tatlong araw na pala akong nandito? "I was so excited when kuya Cymiel told me that you called." Kita ang saya sa kanyang mukha habang naka palumbabang naka tingin sa akin.

This kid. Natawa nalang ako sa kanyang ka kyutan. He's so young for those things that happened to him, but I'm glad that he stayed strong until the end.

"I just want to see you because I'm worried." Ngumuso naman sya sa akin at napahugot nalang ng isang malalim na hininga matapos tapunan ng tingin ang aking naka bendang ulo.

"You don't have to worry about me. Aside from I'm getting annoyed by that Ava, well, everything's going well. I'm fine." Natawa naman ako dahil sa kanyang sinabi. "You got hurt because of me. You're in this situation because I came to you for help. I'm sorry Noona." Agad ko namang hinawakan ang kanyang kamay.

"You're my brother, okay? We have the same battle to conquer and I am happy that it's all over now and I thank you for helping me end it. You don't have to be sorry." Senserong saad ko bago ngumite sa kanya.

Happiness comes with a price. What are you willing to give just to have that happiness? What are you willing to sacrifice in order for you to have the ideal life? Are you willing to pay for the price just to be happy?

I think I already sacrificed lots of things already and I bleed many times already, I think it's time for me to have that happiness that I want.

"I want to stay and take care of you, but unfortunately Kuya Cymiel's downstairs already, I need to go. Don't forget to call me, please." Ngumite naman ako Kay Zaire at agad syang tinanguan.

"Thank you for visiting Zaire. I promise, I'll be home tomorrow." Sambit ko naman na dahilan upang mapangite rin sya.

"Really? Then... I have to cook lots of food tomorrow. See you at home Noona." Saglit nya Muna akong niyakap bago lumabas ng pinto.

Dahan-dahan naman akong nag lakad patungo sa may balkonahe. Kita mula roon ang gate kung saan nakita Kong nakatayo si Cymiel sa labas ng sasakyan habang seryosong kausap si Dylan.