Metanoia (Hawk/Eli)

Chapter Thirty-Six:

"I don't think I've ever see anything like this." the doctor said as they helped me back on the bed after they ran some screening. 

"It seems you get a very quick, temporary paralysis whenever you do too much movement with your lower half." the doctor continued on. 

"But when I walk this never happens." I said. 

"It seems when you perform karate or take too much damage to your lower half it happens. It seems this is caused by your accident that happened in the school. You took a major blow to your back, even when Miguel landed on the railing. You hit the steps hard enough to still leave major bruising after 3 months. I'm not sure you should continue doing karate." the doctor said. She got up and left the room, leaving me with everyone and the news she left behind. 

I sat there in silence, not knowing what to say. Never fight again? I couldn't imagine not being able to continue karate. Is this how Miguel felt? Defeated, lost, panicked? I felt tears prick my eyes as I thought about it. I felt a hand in mine and looked down, recognizing it as Eli's. I felt more tears coming and heard Eli usher everyone out. As soon as the door closed and it was just me and Eli, I started to bawl. I felt the bed shift and arms wrap around me. I cried harder than I ever have in my entire life. 

"Sshh, it'll be okay, Addy. I promise. You're a fighter. You're strong. You will pull through this. I know you will." Eli whispered into my ear and planted a light kiss to my hair. I hugged him tighter, glad he was here with me through all of this. I pulled myself together and stopped crying. I pulled away from Eli but not far enough away to where he wasn't touching me. I gave him a sad smile and a peck on his lips. 

"Can we go home now?" I asked him. He nodded his head and helped me out of the bed, making sure I wasn't going to fall again. 

He grabbed my things and we walked out of the hospital room to see everyone still standing there. I gave them a faint smile and headed out of the hospital and to my dad's car. I got in and waved everyone goodbye. 

We eventually arrived at out little apartment and I got out slowly, making sure not to hurt myself too bad. 

"You need some help there, Ads?" my dad asked. I shook my head no and went straight into the apartment and into my room. I slammed my door shut and plopped myself on my bed. As I stared at my peeling ceiling thoughts start running through my head. Why now? Why is this particular injury arriving now? Is there any way of fixing it?

My head started to hurt with all the thoughts and possibilities running through my mind. I heard a knock on my door and groaned. I opened thinking it was my dad but it was Miguel. I gave him a small smile and went back to my bed, letting him come inside. He closed the door and walked over to the end of my bed and sat down, putting my legs in his lap. 

"I know exactly how you're feeling right now." He quietly said. I blew hard out of my nose and sat up, looking at Miguel.

"How did you do it? How in the actual fuck did you survive the mental process through it? How did you handle knowing that you might not be able to fight again?" I asked him.

"I surrounded myself with friends and your dad. You and him never gave up on me. Ever. So I won't ever give up on you with this, Addy. I'm gonna make sure you get back to fighting." Miguel said. I gave him a tight smile.

"I don't know if I can keep fighting if my legs keep giving out on me every time I throw a kick." I said to him. 

"Then as soon as the doctors figure out what's going on and they fix it, we will get you back fighting." Miguel said.

"I'm not completely paralyzed ya know. I just get temporarily paralyzed. I can still fight, I'll just never know when my legs are gonna give out on me." I said with a shrug. This is all such bullshit. What the hell did I do to deserve this? I put my head in my hands and groaned. Miguel rubbed my leg in a comforting manner. 

"I don't know what I'm going to do, Miguel. Karate has been my whole life. If I can't do it anymore..." I started but stopped, not wanting to think about it. 

"You'll be okay. I promise, Addy."

I hoped he was right.

a/n: I know this was a very short chapter but it was just a filler. I think I'm done until the fourth season comes out which is very soon!! I am so excited. More chapters to come after December 31st!! Thank you to everyone who is still reading it means a lot to me.