Addicted || HS

Fifty-nine (Phantom)

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~Previously on Addicted~

"I have been trying to forget this feeling inside of me..."

"Why are you here if you have an addiction?"

"I need to talk to you."

"I love you."

"You need to leave."

"Don't talk to me!"

"I wansn't planning on it!"

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Rose POV

It's midnight already and I still couldn't shut my eyes and fall asleep. After all I'm the one who brought this upon myself.

"Hey," Louis peeked his head in my room.

Not saying a word I rolled over on my side, refusing to let him see me cry; I don't like people seeing me show my feelings. Seconds later I felt the corner of the right side of the bed dip, and a warm hand rubs up and down my arm to comfort me.

"It can only get better." He whispered.

I fluttered my eyes, letting the tears fall onto the sheets while hugging the pillow in my arms.

I don't know what to believe now.

Am I a horrible person?

"Please say something." He begged when I still stayed quiet.

Nothing left my mouth, not even the silent answer that flooded in my mind.

Will this pain ever be over?

"Rose, I know it's hard, but please don't push me away."

Don't push me away. Harry's words.

"Harry." My lips parted, finally detaching themselves when the word slipped out of my mouth.

"Rose, it's me... Louis." Confusion laced in his voice.

He got deeper in the bed, getting closer to me, yet leaving enough personal space for me.

"Are you okay?" He continued checking my forehead to see if I have a fever.

I stayed there, motionless, trapped inside my own body wanting to free myself from the pain I was in.

In panic Louis ran to his room, quickly coming back with his phone.

"Harry!" He yelled into the phone.

I tried to tell him to hang up but nothing left out of my cold body.

"What the fuck did you do to her!?" His words ring in my ear, and they fill the empty room with anger. I could hear Harry's voice at the other side of the line, but I couldn't form the words to know what he's saying.

He paced back and fourth in the room, occasionally looking at me every couple of seconds to see if I was okay. He kept on shouting, saying hurtful words and things that I know they wouldn't come out of his mouth unless he's furious and worried. I don't blame him for saying those things to Harry, but I also don't want him to. This is all confusing, everything's is a mixture of anger and heartbroken.

If I had to pick a number in a scale of one to ten, describing the pain inside of me, then I will pick nine. The pain inside hurts like a ten, but I pick nine because I'm saving that one as my hope that everything will be okay. As cheesy as it sounds it's true, I will always save that one as my hope...

"That fucking bastard." Louis says, throwing the phone against the wall, startling me from the thud it made. I'm still in my same position as I was before, cuddled with my pillow and my face half buried on it.

He bends down in front of me, and gives me a weak smile. " If you want everything to be okay then count to ten, and after that count again, and again, and everything will be okay." He gets up back on his normal posture, and starts to walk towards the door. I don't want him to leave, I want him to stay here and make company for me until I fall asleep.

"Louis." I barely say, coming out more as a fainted whisper that got lost in between the sound of wind.

He stops at the doorway, and his head snaps at my direction. His blue eyes look grey from the dim moonlight that creeps in the room, and glows on his face. Relief crosses his face when a word came out of my mouth.

"Yes?" He takes a step closer into the room, and I try to sit up.

"Where are you going?" The words come out stronger than before, but still low. By now the pain isn't aching inside, but it is still there. He takes a deep breath before looking out the window that is next to me.

"I'm gonna take care of some things." He still doesn't look at me.

"Can I come-"

"No," his eyes meet mine. "You stay here and sleep." Without saying another word he walks out of the room, leaving me alone.

Seconds after watching the ceiling of the room my eyes get heavy, and I fall drop dead into a deep sleep.

~Rose's Dream~

My eyes swing open, and all I see is the color white. I'm in the middle of nowhere while a blizzard is going on. A sharp pain covers my whole body, a pain of heat burn and coldness that may be coming from the heavy snow. I stand up, realizing I'm wearing a long white dress that also has long sleeves. I look around, trying to see if I can find anything. Nobody can find me, especially that I'm in a white dress surrounded by snow. Trying to find me will be the same as trying to find a white bird in a blizzard.

The blizzard starts to get heavier, eating me alive as seconds pass.

How did I get here? Why am I here?

I starts to run, my bare feet getting numb by the snow underneath. The feeling then starts to spread across my body, going up and chocking me by the time it got up to my throat. I stumble into my own feet, sending me to the floor. My hands get covered by the thick snow, and I begin to slowly stop breathing.

In a matter of seconds that felt more like long moments the blizzard starts to die down. From a long distance I see someone walking towards me. I try to stand up, but my whole body is frozen. He's now standing in front of me, his dark leather combat boots right next to my face. He bends down, and his warm touch melts the frozen water from my body. He helps me get up, and I wipe the remainder of the snow from my dress.

I look up to his face, but I can't see anything, it's all blurry.

"Baby look what you've done to me." He begins to speak. "Baby look what you've done now. Baby I'll never leave if you keep holding me this way." He then disappears like a phantom in a blizzard, leaving me behind to die alone.

~End of Dream~
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Q:How did this chapter make you feel?

I once had that exact same dream before, except that the guy didn't say those words. Instead he said "bye" and then left.
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-WaleskaRomo