Nights in the Studio - Taejoon

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Namjoon's POV

It was almost midnight. Four years ago.

We were already sleeping in the same room, and we had just finished the first tour of our career, we were exhausted, but not too exhausted.

He was brushing his teeth in the bathroom, and I was watching him from the edge of my bed, I must have had a smile because of how he moved his cheeks and looked at his dark circles and body in the mirror.

"I think I should lose weight." he said with the sound of foam at his mouth.

"You're perfect" I answered immediately, and he looked away and spat, so I took advantage and got up, approaching the door "as always" he rinsed crouched down and I didn't resist him. I walked up behind him and put my right hand on his waist, and with my knee I spread his legs apart, pulling him towards me.

"Joonie what are you-" He jumped up, but I took him with both arms and put my face behind his neck, smelling the wonderful scent of his.

"Let's go to bed, I'm tired."

He nodded his head and I smiled broadly, I loved having control over his body when we played like this, that he was my prey and I owned him. I pulled him with my arms across the room to finally drop him on the bed as he laughed. He opened his eyes after catching his breath and looked directly at me, narrowed them inviting me to be next to him. I let myself fall on top of him, where he stopped me with his hands.

"You're going to crush me!" He suppressed me laughing and I put my arms on both sides of his face. We met each other's eyes intensely, his mouth trembled, and his cheeks colored. I closed in on him and he held his breath, I kissed his forehead like I used to and pulled away. 

His most sincere smile unfolded before me, and then I sat on the bed and opened the covers, where skin entered without replying and where I, after turning off the light of the nightstand lamp, joined him, putting it like every night in my arms.

"Joonie..."

"Yes? " He turned, leaving me smelling the back of his neck and feeling his hip on mine.

"I like you."

"I like you too. "

"Yes, but... I like you a lot" I opened my eyes and thought for a moment about absolutely nothing. I lasted like this for several minutes until a tremor in his body made me react "Joonie-?" He went silent when he felt my hand under his shirt, running over his flat and smooth abdomen with my icy hand, which made him shudder and draw small gasps from his mouth.

"I also, like you a lot. "

So, we fell asleep. Without daring, with my hand inside him, almost being held by him. Where he was mine...my confidant, my partner, my...Tae.

That's why this is so hard for me now. Because that is past.

They kissed. They actually did.

Jimin had him cornered in the bathroom, with one hand on his leg and the other on his neck, with his eyes closed and his lips on his, on Taehyung's. How scared he was holding on to the porcelain edge with his eyes open, that looked at me for half a second leaning out the door, and that then caused him to separate without a word when I practically ran out.

He had it held, as if...he were his.

But he's yours.

How long have they been like that? Since when did Taehyung accept? How did it happen that they are together if I am completely sure that Jimin is not gay?

It turned out better than you.

No, definitely not. It can't be that he changed me... do they sleep together? But what the hell am I saying, I don't care about that, it's not like I care who he sleeps with...or who he kisses. It's none of my business, I'm just a...

A?

Who the hell am I?

I guess it's time to find out.