Nights in the Studio - Taejoon

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Taehyung's POV

'Unrequited love can go fuck itself'

I cross out what I have written a thousand times, with the almost new black pen, in my notebook.

No, it must be something else... I know.

'The fucking love I keep for you is....'

Is?

It's bullshit. I think as I settle into the chair in the studio I'm in, where the cold in the room is the only thing that reminds me that I'm alive as I keep listening to the ingenious rhythms of the studio next door...from the one next door...

I wonder what he's doing....

Not something as bad as this.

That's why I have to keen on, help me you useless shitty feeling.

Ok, ok then what if...

If?
...

Then?
...
...
...
...

Ugh, forget it.

Fuck you.

I sigh.

Ok, I must continue ... I need to finish this lyrics for today because I will not have more time to continue with this.

I look at the paper on my desk again and bite my lip.

'The fucking love I keep for you is poisonous and cruel and ridiculous and...'

I stay in my cold place realizing there's only one thing I could write, although I know I brake at accepting the fact that this fucking love I keep for him, for my friend, for...Joon is...

'...the only thing I have.'

God, I hate myself.

Me too.