Nights in the Studio - Taejoon

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Namjoon's POV

The next day we were called early for the official Taehyung music release meeting. We were all excited, and took charge of trying to make a good day around us; despite the fact that not all of us had the opportunity to accompany him: Hoseok and Jungkook had to go to some details of the tour, Jimin stayed in his room isolated form everyone as he's been in the past days while waiting for us to be called to take the bags for the tour; and Jin found himself with too many obstacles to find something nice to wear on the plane to get his head out of his closet.

I did the best I could. I got up early and tried to surprise him but there were too many eyes around, I still managed to held hands under the table at breakfast and when we got in the car, I sat next to him with a smile.

Right now, we are sitting in Bang PD's office waiting for him to show up along with the other executives from the production areas. Yoongi has been the only one to come with us, but he hasn't shown any emotion even though I know he's been knowing exactly what I'm doing with my uncontainable feelings all this time.

I know I shouldn't be so public, but I can't seem to help it: When I think about what happened yesterday, I feel thrilled, and it only increases when I look at Taehyung and it seems that he is just like me, wanting to be alone again.

Wee look at each other for a moment, quiet. A sound in the door makes us look away and our Hyung arrives soon.

He presents to us with the album cover: white and with natural designs. Another person from marketing comes too; then they explain to us the strategies, the promotions and the preparation of the other merchandise that accompanies the launch.

I pay attention looking out of the corner of my eye as the blue hair jumps excitedly on his seat, looking as happy and hopeful as ever. I want to hug him.

We arrange everythings and Taehyung is soon to get notified about the prints and the teaser release.

When it's all over, Bang Pd thanks the executives for their assistance and asks Taehyung if everything was alright, he hastens to reply that it's much better than I ever imagined and I chuckle; then Bang Pd-nim ​​takes a small bottle from the side of his desk and offers us a drink.

Yoongi is the first to drink the champagne while Taehyung keeps laughing; shortly after Bang Pd thanks us and we sit on their chairs talking about trivial things, until we are surprised when our Hyung starts:

"I heard you're much better now, but you don't sleep with Jimin anymore." Taehyung wiped the smile from him but stood straight, nodding "Too bad, I thought they'd figure something out eventually."

"Did you know Hyung?" I ask, shocked to the bone "How?"

"It was impossible not to notice," he laughs "always together and smiling like that...you're lucky no one else saw you," he heard Yoongi smile "you really know how to hide anything..."

"That's because there's nothing to hide," Yoongi comments, Taehyung looks at him uncertainly, as if he were a traitor "they just had a fun time, they stopped seeing each other recently, right Taehyung?"

"Yes." Tae says, accepting to reply to the question.

"Can I ask why?" We all turned to our producer with a raised eyebrow "I mean, because after all you are a group, and any discussion puts you in danger."

"It wasn't what I thought it would be." Taehyung answers simply, looking at me for half a second.

"Now that's strange," Bang Pd-nim ​​comments, "he doesn't think so." We all fell silent and turned to look at him confused. "He came here the day before yesterday I think, he told me that you were together, but you wouldn't say anything, he told me that you loved each other and that you would confirm everything when you came back from the tour."

"Pardon?" I can't help but turn around in a daze, I search Taehyung's eyes for some explanation but there's nothing, just confusion, just like Yoongi who has even reclined in his seat upon hearing what he just said.

"I thought they had talked about it, and I was about to do something to celebrate them. We're already starting to write the official announcement." Our producer comments friendly, looking at me as if I were crazy. Taehyung gets up from his seat and walks around the office without saying anything "What? Did I say something wrong?"

"That is not true." I tell him angry at his words, unintentionally raising my tone.

"Hey Joon, it's ok...I'm just saying that because that's what Jimin-"

"Jimin lies." Taehyung says turning back to us "That's why there's nothing between us anymore. We're just bandmates, acquaintances and old friends." I hear Taehyung's voice crack and I have the urge to take his hand, but I don't, instead I let him come back and sit down; in his place it is Yoongi who brings his hand to his shoulder and gently comforts him.

"Oh well, I'm sorry," we all turned back, "he told me that you didn't want to talk about it with me out of embarrassment and I thought that since you're a bit shy it was normal."

"I'm not a kid anymore, Hyung." Taehyung says getting out of Yoongi's touch "I'm an adult and I would never ask someone to say that for me. Never." Bang Pd nods calmly.

"Okay, then I won't mention it. It was my mistake."

Internally I feel bad for our producer, I understand where he's coming from.

I look at Taehyung looking for some sign of calm, but I can't find it, he just stays thoughtful in his chair. None of us tries to return to a more pleasant environment because we are not like that; we know that Taehyung is going through things and that he needs to live this.

Instead, we decided to leave. As soon as we do it Taehyung rushes to the car and asks to be taken home, I follow him willing to go where he does but Yoongi stops me in the middle of the road, I look at his serious features waiting for the words that make me feel capriciously.

"I'll talk to them. It's best if you don't come home until tonight."

I really want to appeal, to tell him to go to hell and go for Tae, to beat Jimin up, to let myself tell everyone how much I love Taehyung; but thinking about it I understand why he asks me not to follow him. I hold my breath and look into his eyes; I don't move but I know he understands that I will follow his advice.

I watch the car start and drive out of sight, I think maybe it's a good day to go for a walk until eight o'clock, anything to get my mind off what I have in life right now. I'll think about the next time I have Tae freely and I can love him in front of everyone.